So, yeah, im back here to blog. Its been months since i last blogged, right? Oh, come on, its not that im busy with the F***ING 'O' LEVELS? i was just sitting for the paper, for the sake of, nothing. yeah, that's for real. School was very boring & how am i gonna concentrate if there's many things going on here & there? Stress. That's the word. But, dont think i'm in any kind of misery. Big No2 okay? I'm well & doing good, not that good when my BOYFRIEND is by my side. Save the BOYFRIEND story for later, it'll be interesting, yeah, to me, i dont know if it is to u.

Tomorrow is my last paper. Finally! I just hate going to school for a couple of hours & having to wake up early morning, which im so, not used to it nowadays. Well, look, i've been waking up late since prelims are over. That was also the last i stepped into YUAN CHING SECONDARY SCHOOL. But, i would like to thank YCSS for having me in the school for 5 years & having me to meet my BESTEST GIRLFRIEND in there during my first year, indeed, my first day. She's no other than, JASEEMA. She's the one i share EVERYTHING with. & when i say EVERYTHING, it's really EVERYTHING. I can talk to her about ANYTHING, she understands. Thank u so much ma for being patience with me despite the nonsense i did & the irritating things i did sometimes. But, however, u can tolerate. Aww, haha! I love u alot more than my BOYFRIEND but a little bit less than MY ELDEST SISTER, AISYAH. She's always my FIRST! Okay shoots! Tomorrow will be the last day i'd be seeing Jaseema in school & she said she bought me something. Holly shit! I've spent 'my' money on pants, for work. Okay damn, so Ma, can i get u the thing on my very first pay, together with your present for your SWEET 17(FINALLY), HAHA! That will be even a big boom. Sorry, im not the type of person who saves, like you do.

Now, im gonna blog about WORK! Hell yeah, WORK?! Okay, I've never been in the working world. So, im kind of, nervous & scared. But whatever, I'll start to commit this Thursday, on the 13th Nov - 24th Dec 2008. Tomorrow will be the training, haha! I've collected my uniform, lucky its just a nearly plain black polo-tee. I fit on Size XS. They wanted to issue me Size S, but it's too big. So, i grab the XS instead. I'm so excited! Thanks to Suhailah for the information on the Job Interview, we went on Thursday. It goes like, as per normal, the interviewer would say "We'll call you within a week if you're shortlisted.". Right? It was Wednesday, almost a week & they didnt call. So, i called Suhailah & asked her out for another interview, she agreed. That afternoon, i got a call from an unknown no. & my prepaid was low. Thought of not answering it but im afraid if it's from 'them'. I answered & i say, "Sorry, my prepaid is low, im topping up now & i'll call u back, bye!". So, of course, i top up my phone and return the call. Its from "them" & i was so excited! On the other hand, im worried if Suhailah didnt get the job. So, i called her soon after & she said, she got it too! Phew, what a relief! You know how it feels right? When someone recommend(did i get the spelling correctly?) you & you got the job, yet she didnt? It feels awkward right? That is what im afraid of. Oh, i almost forgot to tell you where i'll be working at. I'll be working at Robinsons @ Raffles City.

Next, my Boyfriend, he is the reason why i didnt blog for sometime & why i decided to blog today. Boyfriend was away since 6th Oct, he leaves me crying for most of the time. That is for me to know & for you to find out. You know i can't be apart from Bf? He's the reason why im still smiling. He's my everything. & i finally blog, today, is because Boyfriend is coming back to me, to his family too. HAIQAL! The waiting & the sorrows is finally OVER! haha! We'll be smiling again! Thanks alot Haiqal(Bf's younger bro) & Bf family, for being there for me & giving me the countless support & advices. You all are the best! As for Bf & me, the 'snail mail' is over too. But, its kinda cool writing letters to each other. Its very sweet though. Haha! Whenever Im down, I'll read his letters and reminisce. Boyfriend, I Love You, no matter what. I'll stand by u like u did too. Im glad that i got you!

Labels: boyfriend., life., work

hello dear readers.
im gonna sum up everything. i've got no mood
to blog. so, fyi, i wont be blogging for some time;
maybe. only my closest friend know what hell im
going through. girls, u gotta keep me company to
help me go through this. i cant do this alone. im
not strong enough.

yesterday was the most memorable day ever. went
out with boyfriend and his crew plus Shabirah and
Huda. so, had fun with shab and huda. now i know
they're great people. shot some pics with them.
girls, till nxt time okay. haha!

boyfriend, dont blame yourself, u're not the reason
why im like this. im okay. u're a pleasant one and
i know whatever u do has a reason behind it. i
understand how u feel and im not angry. i just wanna
have u in my arms. i wanna hug u throughout. im
gonna wait patiently. i hope u cn celebrate my birthday
with me and hari raya with me. boy, im in love with u.
u're the reason why im smiling.

kepada semua umat islam, sila makan puas2 ye. haha!

god, help me go through this, please.

Labels: boyfriend., i miss u.

this is specially for my boyfriend, Hafidz.

"Sayang, maafkn i kalau selame nie i ade tipu
atau simpan bende daripade u. i tknk u marah2.
On this very day, i decided to spit out the truth
because im guilty of lying to u and i dont want u
to know the truth from others' mouth. At first,
i seriously dont hv the guts to tell u but im too
stress thinking abt it, so, i text u. yet still, now,
i dont hv the guts to face u. im so sorry hunney.
Nanti hari raye saye mintak maaf. Also, thanks
alot for understanding and be patience towards
me. i know i banyak menyusahkn u and stresskan
u. told u, i suck. im so happy that im blessed with
a wonderful boyfriend; which is lovable. I've learn
alot from u. Hunney, i promise u that i wont repeat
the same mistake again and i'll make full use of the
LAST chance to be faithful towards u. Words can't
say what LOVE can do. I love hafidz, sincerely i
swear."

So, thats about it.

Labels: boyfriend.