Go ahead just leave, can't hold you, you're free
You take all these things, if they mean so much to you
I gave you your dreams, 'cause you meant the world
So did I deserve to be left here hurt?

You think I don't know you're out of control
I ended up finding all of this from my boys
Girl, you're stone cold, you say it ain't so
You already know I'm not attached to material

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
My love

Yeah, what did I do but give love to you?
I'm just confused as I stand here and look at you
From head to feet, all that's not me
Go 'head, keep the keys, that's not what I need from you

You think that you know
(I do)
You've made yourself cold
(Oh yeah)
How could you believe them over me, I'm your girl

You're out of control
(So what?)
How could you let go?
(Oh yeah)
Don't you know I'm not attached to material?

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

So all this love I give you, take it away
(Uh, uh huh)
You think material's the reason I came
(Uh, uh huh)

If I had nothing would you want me to stay
(Uh, uh huh)
You keep your money, take it all away

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

Ooh, my love
(I'm taking back my love)
Ooh, my love

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2 weeks, i didnt blog. there's something going on, so, i cant blog daily like i used to. i decided not to blog these days. i, dont feel like blogging. im here just to change my blog song and to say, i really miss boyfriend, seriously. that's all.

I love today! Wonder why? The weather is very nice. The wind is very strong and im loving it! Haha! It is very cooling. I wanna sleep again later but, i guess i cant. Im meeting my gf, Jaseema, today afternoon. I wonder when was the last we met? She is starting school this Friday as a Nursing student in Nanyang Poly. Good luck okay? & never2 forget me or i'll eat u up! Haha!

Im having cramps now and i wonder why. Dont tell me that Little S in coming out soon? Oh god, not now. Or maybe, it is because i didnt eat a proper meal yesterday? hmm. i've been tossing and turning in bed because nowadays, i cant seem to sleep peacefully. Very terrible! I can only sleep on my sides which i dont quite like it. I love sleeping on my tummy with my face on the side of course, which i no longer cant. Damn. Nvm, i'll get my peaceful2 sleep soon, i hope so, because, when Little S in out, that means, lesser sleep than ever! Gross! Haha! Nvm, im sure i'll do just good. Uhuh.

Seriously, i dont think i have anything to blog about for now, yet. It is still early morning right? Maybe i'll have alot to blog abt tmr? okay? toodles!

First and foremost, Happy 46th(if im not wrong) Birthday Papa! I didnt txt papa because im scared to do so as i know he's still mad at me but, i do remember his birthday if no one else does. See, im a very concerned daughter. Eventhough papa is always full of anger, i know i hv the best father ever. He is concern abt his kids and his family. He nvr fails to fulfill his roles as a father and husband. Thank u papa.

Let me update a little about Little S okay? These days, Little S just cant stop moving for even a minute. I think as the time comes nearer, she's getting over-excited? just like me? haha! You'll see the world soon, very soon. Little S turns 34th week and im left to countdown for 6 more weeks or lesser, who knows she'll be out earlier, it is possible kan? Im making a list of stuffs for Little S. Just recently, i get Little S a baby's blanket. Its really cute. Im wondering what more is there for me to shop for?

I'll be going for 2 check-ups in a week and money is really the problem. Yet again, im saving every little2 cent, it counts okay? Siket2, lama2 jadi bukit kan? But in a day, i must a least spend a dollar, wonder why? It is because, i nvr fail to go to the shop to get myself either a packet of Orange juice or HL Milk. I must okay. That is why.

Oh yes, i have make my final decision abt Little S name. Little S is my first, so, i guess, i'll keep to the name which bf and i have agreed on. Okay? So, no more names here and there. I'll keep to my choice. Alright!

On the other hand, i hope bf is coping well. I dont know how he is doing but i just hope he is okay. I wonder when will i get to meet bf. hmm. We've been contacting only through text and calls which is also difficult to get through each other. So, i hope for the best for u hunney. U're loved. Bf, rmbr, dont ever2 text me and say i dont care abt u eh, i do. im always good, good at heart, always, eventhough i curse and swear everytime. haha!

Hello all! Okay, firstly, the reason i didnt blog for the last few days is because ibu is not working and i cant get my hands on the laptop that easy. Haha! She would nag if i were to blog everyday. Since last Friday till Sunday, i had been rotting at home, i didnt go out. Seriously. Yet today, i went somewhere. I brought Farid to the Polyclinic as his eyes was swollen since yesterday and it worsen today. Ibu would normally bring her child to Raffles Medical, but this time, she asked to go to Polyclinic because she's having financial difficulties. Guess what? The total cost of Farid's medical bill today at Polyclinic was $29.20 because the medicine prescribe by the doctor was an expensive one and i was the one who paid for it. I used the money which i set aside to pay for my 2 check-ups nxt wk at KKH.

I was at the Polyclinic from 8:54am to 11am. How long is that? After the long2 wait at Polyclinic, Farid and i was feeling really hungry as we havent had our breakfast. Lucky nenek gave me $6 earlier. She asked me to buy her 2 pieces of prata and the balance is for me to share with Farid. So after buying nenek's prata, im left with $4+. I bought a large fries and i get Farid a hot fudge sundae since the money wasnt enough to get both of us a set meal each. How miserable is that? & now, im left with nothing in my wallet, but, nvm. Haha! Money really matters in Singapore.

Eventhough im hungry, i didnt eat when i reached home. I was too tired. I changed and i sleep. So, later after blogging, im gonna whatever there is in the kitchen. haiz! Today is the first day for ITE's April Intake students. Haha! I really miss my school days and of course my friends. Hope to see them real soon. I hadnt meet bf for more than a week! Terrible. Its not that i dont wanna meet, i just cant meet bf, so, i wonder when will i see bf again. Soon, i hope so.

Okay, i guess there's nothing more i wanna blog abt, so, this will do for today.

If im given 5 wishes, firstly, i would wish to be a part of boyfriends' life and be by boyfriends' side 24/7. Second, i would wish for the best of everything for my family. Thirdly, i would wish to correct my mistakes. Fourth, i would wish to be a very reliable mother. Fifth, i would wish to turn back time. Okay, forget about the wishes, its impossible luh.

Alright, yesterday i met my beautiful beloved sister, just for a while. I wanted to get the dress which she bought for me so i could wear it for tomorrow's check up at KKH & i also asked her to drive me to MknShiok, to feed my crave for rojak. Relax, its not the Indian Rojak eh. Im so not gonna eat Indian Rojak after what happened recently. I ate the other type of rojak, sorry, i dont know how to explain. keke. But, its nice! Really. Even nenek say it's nice and she wanted to eat it again. Im so sorry nenek but i couldnt get it for u today. im CASHLESS and i cant travel anywhere, my ezlink is dead too. how miserable is that? All i hv in my fat wallet is only $0.25? Haha! Nvm, i dont mind so much abt money. Its okay. There's food for me to eat at home and im clever, u know why? Everytime busu (my uncle) went to send Farid to school, i would asked him to buy me food and when he bring it back, i would smile and say, thank u. that's all. I end up not having to pay for anything. keke. Nice trick eh.

Oh yes, Little S! 33rd week this week. 7 more week and im gonna be tickle-free. guess why? The reason is that, Little S is getting bigger and there's not much space left for her to move freely, so, every time she moves, it tickles! really! Sometimes i got frustrated because Little S will always move when im about to rest or sleep, how irritating is that? keke. Im gonna tahan for the next 7 weeks and when Little S is out, im gonna bite her! keke. Watch out eh kecik. haha! So, KKH, u'll see us tomorrow! Haha!

*Behind those smiles and happiness, lies miseries and sadness. Im missing u.

Hello again Monday! As usual, im bored and i've got nothing to do. Firstly, i miss my family alot! i miss staying under one roof with them and i feel so comfortable at my own crib rather than being at someone else's crib. Forget abt it, i leave with no choice, but to endure the pain i've been keeping inside. I dont mind staying at home and not getting to go out and meet my friends, is still okay but i must meet bf, once a wk, at least? I hv my reasons why and no one understands it. So, why must i bother to share with anyone? I trust my bf. I wont think negatively abt bf unless someone starts poisoning my mind. I know bf is old enough to think between what's good and what's not and i hope he's aware that he have a big responsibility ahead of him.

Maybe to others, bf just dont care or whatever, but i bet u people just dont understand what he is going through. Everyone have problems but some dont like to share. We cant judge a book by its cover right? Whatever it is, i still love and miss my bf alot, i do.

Now, i dont know why but i dont feel like blogging any longer for today. i having a headache and its freaking painful. urgh. damn this headache. i guess, that's all i hv for today. toodles!

Gdmorning earthlings! Haha! Im smelly and very smelly. keke. random. i havent bathe yet but i've eaten and had my breakfast. Wait, i've washed my face and brush my teeth eh. serious. So, my date with my 2 beautiful sister today is cancel because eldest sister, Aisyah will be going out with her bf and friends. Nvm, its okay. Afterall they're my sister and i cn meet them whenever i want. & yes, many2 thanks to eldest sister for getting me a dress. thank u so much!

Do u wanna know what i've been thinking abt lately? It is abt my stay in hospital soon. I've never been admitted to a hospital or stay overnight as a patient before, so, i was wondering, i will hv to stay in the hospital, for a day, at least, and it's frightening. *shivers* Because of the creepy stories i heard and read abt what happened in hospital, im scared.

I'll be having my routine check-ups at KKH as at next Thursday onwards. I cant believe im gonna be a mother and a patient in KKH? Cool shit! What worries me the most is the fees of the routine check-ups. Im not working. I save every cents i get from my family members, yeah, they give me money for my spendings actually, but, i hv to save it for the fees. I do craves for alot of things and its normal from any pregnant woman, but i cant seem to feed my crave most of the times when i think abt saving. so, i, let it go and forget abt it. I used to say i dont mind spending on food but for now, i do mind. I hv to mind. I'd rather eat whatever there is at home than spending on buying food which i crave for. Little S is my life and she's much2 more impt. I get myself into this, so, i hv to face it and be prepared. haiz. it's too late to say regret. but, i've never regret, i hv to accept what happened. A child is a blessing, so, why regret it? haiz.

As at today, it marks exactly a week since i last met bf. I wonder how he is doing right now? Is he okay? Have he eaten? Is he sick? Haiz. I have to sacrifice alot, i cant meet bf and to just contact him through phone, is not easy too. haiz. Somehow, hunney, if u happens to read my post, i really miss u and i mean alot. ily.

That will do for today. haiz.

Im lazy to blog actually, but since i've got nothing to do, so, i blog. Haha! Today, i went to CCK Polyclinic with Ibu's younger son, adek. Reason for the visit, just for a piece of paper, a referral letter to hospital. Im not sick, im very fine, but for just a piece of paper, i waited for hours! Polyclinic katekn, sape yg tk tau. i reached at 11am and leave the polyclinic at 1+pm. phew! Shockingly, im still a child? I paid only $4.90 in total for the consultation and everything because i hv not turn 18 yet. Cool! They go by birthdate, not year!

Head to Lot 1 after the long2 wait, bought adek a cracker and mineral water to fill his tummy & i ended up having to buy him a McD Happy Meal to get him the toy. Oh, so wasted. I should hv gone alone! Walk around at Kiddy Palace to survey Little S's stuffs. As im getting tired and breatheless, i decided to make my way home. Adek didnt want to hop on a cab, so, we waited for the bus instead.

Guess what? At the bus stop, there's this old man wearing just boxers, lift up one side of the boxers and scratch his butt! what a freak?! yucks! He then when to a nearby tree and start touching his 'thing'. he was abt to pull it out and i turn away, who the hell wants to look at it?! He urinate at the tree, just like a little kid. yucks3! he's so smelly! seriously, not that i want to discriminate or whatever, but its friggin' true. What on earth he thinks he is doing? Hv some respect for others and hv some shame for urself luh. haiz! Old man, old man.