i officially declare, im SINGLE & NOT TAKEN.

"u know how much i love u & how it hurts when
u lied to me. u even asked ur sis and friends to
lie too? what are u trying to do? u said u did that
because u dont want me to feel neglected and dont
want me to worry? hafidz, look, im ur girlfriend &
i know u very well. my instinct was right, something
was amiss. u went out with ur friends instead of
meeting me, ur precious? i dont mind u going out with
ur friends, but at least, tell me. u dont have to lie to me.
it is now clear that im not as important as ur friends.
clearly seen okay. i was at home the whole day, waiting,
and u were out there enjoying urself happily? didnt think
of the outcomes that u lied to me? haiz. u're a joker. that
is why i keep on saying u're weird. u also dont have to
dig my past and compare. i know i suck alot. i gave u 3
chances and it is more than enough. i thought u were
different, i thought i could rely on u, but i was wrong.
guys are guys. u guys are all the same. just cant commit.
HAFIDZ, IM SORRY. I ADMIT I LOVE U, BUT THIS
RELATIONSHIP CANT WORK, WITHOUT TRUST.
I CANT TRUST U NOMORE NOR I CAN FORCE
MYSELF TO DO SO. IM SORRY, BUT IM LEAVING.
WE'RE OVER. THANKS ALOT FOR THE LOVE U
SHOWERED ME ALL THIS WHILE AND FOR THE
ATTENTION I GOT FROM UR FAMILY."

LOVE,
NUR FADILLAH BTE HARRON.

Labels: GOODBYE LOVE.

BOYFRIEND,
LET ME TELL U THIS,
YOU'RE SO2,
WEIRD, VERY WEIRD!!

hello people. im here again, to blog.
im so bored at ibu's crib, doing nothing,
but, rot. haiz! it's saturday & im at home
helping ibu doing her work, keying bookings.

i didnt meet hunney yesterday, today &
maybe, tomorrow. haiz! i missed him so2
much. boyfriend, u're loved, by me. & i hope,
only me, nobody else.

however, boyfriend is abit weird somehow.
hmm. but, nevermind. i wonder. i guess i'll
end here. i've got nothing to blog about.
till here. love, didie.

Labels: when boredom strikes.

hello! firstly, i dont hv a tittle for this post.
okay, this week, the last week of term 3 for
school, i'm absent, 3 days in a row. from
Wednesday to Friday. Monday and Tuesday
was having prelim paper, no excuses but i
have to turn up. 2 days more and taadaa,
fasting month is here. just cant wait for raye.

i love the 15th day of fasting month, when my
family starts to countdown. haha! also, not
forgetting the hari raya song from the radio
stations. that makes me even eager for raya.
however, too bad my sister and i cant bake
this year as our oven is down. urgh! so, we'll
have to order & that will cost alot.

Despite all the eager-ness, im sad too. i'm sure
boyfriend will not be there to fast with me,
celebrate my birthday & countdown for raya
with me. he wont be able to go the bazzaar @
geylang with me. its okay, i hope i can go through
this.

"sayang, sayang.. knape laa tk fikir dulu seblom
uat? tk kesiankn i ke? ape laa agaknye kat dalam
kepala u biler u uat mcm nie?"

enough said but, i love him no matter what. haha!
boyfriend says, he's not good looking, not cute,
but why i love him? let me answer okay.

Firstly, bf is good at heart.
Secondly, bf just have this special way of expressing
his love.
Thirdly, eventhough he claimed that he's not good-
looking, i wonder why some girls like him? hmm.
Fourthly, he also said that he's not cute, but to me,
he is. He just look so cute when he smiled at me.
*smiling*
Finally, im his gf & i know what kind of guy he is.
(i hope so.)

Bak kata pepatah melayu, baik ataupun buruk,
dia tetap boyfriend saye jugak.

Labels: boyfriend; hari raya.

Firstly, Happy 17th Birthday JOJO NAH QIAN HUI!
Secondly, in case i didnt blog tomorrow,
i wish her first okay. So, here it goes,
Happy Advance 15th Birthday NOORDINIY!

Did not attend school today, kinda lazy & the weather
is so2 nice to sleep. But, however, i did not sleep.
Went to mcd and had breakfast, alone. Then head
home, watch tv. i then got bored lazing at home.
Thought of going to Creative Centre to get hunney's
mp4 fixed but, im too lazy. When i think abt the distance
i hv to walk from J.E MRT to Creative, i think twice.
haha! Sorry hunney, nxt time okay.

So, here i am, at ibu's crib, updating & downloading
stuffs. im bored, seriously, i am. there's some things
that i hv to get it done by today. its a must. teacher's
day celebration is on Friday and i dont feel like going
to school again. but after thinking abt the concerts,
i think i'll go. i think so uh. 50/50. hmm.

& yeah, whatever it is, i miss boyfriend. muah! most of
his stuffs is with me. haha! that's because he's afraid
his siblings or friends will use/wear it. i hv his shirt too.
aww. haha! i washed it already eh. i just love being in
boyfriends' arm, the feeling of being loved by boyfriend
is awesomely great. hell yeah! serious!

i guess im gonna go to milah's crib later. farhan wanna
visit lil cutie, maisara. yup2, she's back at Jurong. that
is all i hv for today.

& oh, lastly, shidah u're a pain in the ass. urgh! F***
off!

Labels: random.

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you &
I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Boy you could have stayed but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me? But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of timeIf it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Verse 2]

It's been a long time since you called me(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Boy I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

[Bridge]
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint trueI
really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Bridge]

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for youIf it's the last thing i do

[Chorus]

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for youIf you think
I'm fine it just aint trueI really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
I'll Be Waiting.

(i edit abit)

Labels: wait for u.

hello dear readers.
im gonna sum up everything. i've got no mood
to blog. so, fyi, i wont be blogging for some time;
maybe. only my closest friend know what hell im
going through. girls, u gotta keep me company to
help me go through this. i cant do this alone. im
not strong enough.

yesterday was the most memorable day ever. went
out with boyfriend and his crew plus Shabirah and
Huda. so, had fun with shab and huda. now i know
they're great people. shot some pics with them.
girls, till nxt time okay. haha!

boyfriend, dont blame yourself, u're not the reason
why im like this. im okay. u're a pleasant one and
i know whatever u do has a reason behind it. i
understand how u feel and im not angry. i just wanna
have u in my arms. i wanna hug u throughout. im
gonna wait patiently. i hope u cn celebrate my birthday
with me and hari raya with me. boy, im in love with u.
u're the reason why im smiling.

kepada semua umat islam, sila makan puas2 ye. haha!

god, help me go through this, please.

Labels: boyfriend., i miss u.

step cute.


this is disgusting. haha!


i was swallowing hot fried wanton.



Danity Kane Singapore Edition.


i was talking to hunney & aisha snap this.

hello! okay, yesterday was another outing with
my girls. it was a last minute plan. it was 12noon
when kak shae msg me & the rest. i was in the toilet,
wanted to bathe of course. i have nothing on so, i
agreed to tag along. thought og meeting bf but he
was asleep and my girls are meeting at 2pm, which
is 2 hours from 12noon. i was in the toilet for abt,
30-40 mins. that is normal. i wanted to wear all red,
i wore red/white sleeveless, red clip, red/black bag,
red earrings. im only short of red watch and bangles.

yesterday was fun, laugh out loud at Sakura's. Thanks
alot kak shae for the treat. I owe u one okay. haha!
Met kak nana at far east and continue to window shop,
fro far east to cineleisure. i saw something which attracts
my eyes and attention! & the thing is a shoe!!

first was a pointed canvas shoe. second was NIKE NEW
BALANCE LADIES SHOE! Third was also a NIKE SHOE,
PURPLE IN COLOUR!!

okay, shot alot of pics but & i'll upload in the next post.
my BIRTHday is coming soon, birthday wish list will be up!

Labels: girls.

ouch. it hurts so badly. please. i need alot of rest.
my tummy hurts. menses cramp is so irritating.
pain, please go. skip school today, with bro. went
over to milah's house to visit baby; again. haha!

i said, again because i was at her place too yesterday.
had alot of fun with milah yesterday. snap alot of
pics. haha! but sorry, lazy to upload it. please visit
milah's blog to view thse pics okay.

i think im gonna skip school again tomorrow. my
tummy really is killing me. urgh! result for GCE O
Level MT Exam is out. my result is disappointing.
very disappointing. but heck, i cn retake. its okay.

i've been very hardworking lately. i've been revising.
only for ss and maths. haha! i dont bother about the
rest first. i'll make time to revise for them later.

finally, i miss boyfriend. alot. met him only for awhile
yesterday.

so, that is all.

Labels: cramps.

firstly, i think my blog looks kinda dead. i seriously
dont hv the little2 time to get a new skin or create
one. im very busy; maybe.

secondly, the song, i wanna dedicate that song to
my one and only beloved boyfriend. i dont know
what's wrong with me. i wonder how long i can hold
on to this relationship. i cant control my temper
and i get angry over little2 things.

i feel like no one understands me, not even him.
i dont know how to express it but whenever im
by myself, i think, i should not rush into having a
relationship. i still hv a long way to go. i'll meet new
people as i grow. Not only me, u'll meet new people
too, everyone will.

if we're really meant for each other, we'll meet again
sometime later. but for now, i guess it's just a feeling
which we feel towards each other; called love? okay,
drop the topic. dont bother, i dont wanna stress
myself.

no school today. will be meeting milah later. going to
IMM. im free, so, i accompanied her. i'll bring ibu's
elder son along. pity him. he's bored at home. so, bring
him out. I'll also be going back to my place today.
& tomorrow is just another normal school day. long
hours of studying.

Dear girlfriends, i need advice from u girls. i cant
think of what i should do. please do suggest some
ideas okay. i miss u girls.

& to u, i miss u alot. i guess only i, know that. i love u.
please go back to camp whenever u have to. tkcr too.
eat well, sleep well & rest well. love u.

Labels: Silent Cry.

Gd morning people! So, yeah, im infront of the
laptop, blom mandi, blom cuci muke. haha! busuk.
okay wait, im excited to say this, i really do,
HAPPY BELATED 43RD BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!
dah besar dah die eh. keke. im excited but its belated.
i dont hv time to blog yesterday, was busy keying
ibu's booking. her work from office which she brought
home on Friday. So, i help because its fun doing work
but i wonder what if it is my own work. hmm. will
it be as fun as doing others' work? From the analysis
i've made, i guess, NO! haha.

Went out with boyfriend yesterday. After all the
mengamok2, i still go out with boyfriend. i love him
uh. keke. i dont wanna miss the chance to meet him
yesterday as the last time i met him was last Tuesday?
im trying to say, i miss him laa, even now, im already
missing hugging him. For the first time, i went out
with boyfriends' friends. they're great to be with. they're
so funny. Despite that, i dont laugh much. i was very tired,
my legs are aching & im headache, with many2 people
all over! Whatever it is, i enjoyed myself despite the
crowd all over and i feel loved whenever im with bf.
i love u so much! muah!

i'll be going to yishun today. there's a kenduri there.
will be meeting with some arrogant people, but heck,
i dont care. if they wanna brag, i can brag too laa, even
worst. haha! try me.

Milah, cn i follow u go take baby tmr at yishun? cn i?
i miss carrying baby. she's so cute! Just like her mummy.
aww~ haha!

Okay, lastly, i've finally figured out who is anonymous,
that person is MY ONE & ONLY, BELOVED,
BOYFRIEND. haha! actually, i know it was u, but, i
just wanna double confirm it before i get the wrong
person.

So, i'll end here. i wanna bathe & get ready before someone
start nagging. haha!

Labels: Singapore; boyfriend; National Day.

I got no tittle for this one. haha. its a random post.
hello people. i have no time to update yesterday.
Skip school yesterday. Had to help ibu's elder son,
Farid with his Digital Based Online Assignment
since there's no adult to supervise him, i hv to be
one. Normally, those who skip school wants to wake
up late and take ur own sweet time. But me, instead
of waking up late, i woke up at 7am to help Farid get
the laptop ready and stufs. To my surprise, ibu,
didnt work too. She say, she's bored and get pissed
with colleagues at work.

Surf the net till 12noon and slack for a while. Had
my shower at 1+pm and met boyfriend at polyclinic.
Head to his place soon after and guess what, im
scared. Boyfriend got angry with his bro because
of house key. He punch the wall and his gate to
vent his angry. Sincerely, i say, that is the most
stupid thing to do to vent your anger because u
hurt yourself by doing that. Isn't that stupid?

& the most irritating thing is, boyfriend nag at me.
he's just like my mum, my dad, in overall, he's just
like the old people laa. haha! hate it u know. urgh!
regret meeting u yesterday u know? ishk! didnt
expect that to happen u know? the fight lasted for
quite sometime. i keep quiet all the way, not wanting
to answer anything.

i reached at 10pm. had my shower and had my late
dinner or is it considered as supper? i didnt eat the
whole day. yeah, i mean, i eat, but not a meal. just
20pcs of cocktails. I went to bed straight after eating.
& woke up at 6am today.

Okay, now its about today. went to school as per
normal. The not normal thing is that i must wake up
early, leave early as im from CCK. So, my family's
Toyota Sienta will be out today night! Wee! Now my
family is complete. I love my family alot.

Phew! This year Hari Raya, we dont hv to hop on the
public transport to travel; only if i go out with my
friends. My sisters and I cn wear higher heels because
first sister always complaint, saying she dont wanna
wear too high, high-heels as we hv to walk alot and our
feet hurts. Not anymore now. haha!

Im going back to my place tonight. Wont be able to blog
often, internet connection at home sucks and the laptop
is doom, again. My family is leaving to JB on Friday till
Monday. I ain't going. Im gonna stay to celebrate
Singapore's Birthday! Im proud to be a Singaporean.
Love, Singapore. haha!

Lastly, dear anonymous, please name urself. thank u.

I guess, that is all i have for today and the previous day.

this is specially for my boyfriend, Hafidz.

"Sayang, maafkn i kalau selame nie i ade tipu
atau simpan bende daripade u. i tknk u marah2.
On this very day, i decided to spit out the truth
because im guilty of lying to u and i dont want u
to know the truth from others' mouth. At first,
i seriously dont hv the guts to tell u but im too
stress thinking abt it, so, i text u. yet still, now,
i dont hv the guts to face u. im so sorry hunney.
Nanti hari raye saye mintak maaf. Also, thanks
alot for understanding and be patience towards
me. i know i banyak menyusahkn u and stresskan
u. told u, i suck. im so happy that im blessed with
a wonderful boyfriend; which is lovable. I've learn
alot from u. Hunney, i promise u that i wont repeat
the same mistake again and i'll make full use of the
LAST chance to be faithful towards u. Words can't
say what LOVE can do. I love hafidz, sincerely i
swear."

So, thats about it.

Labels: boyfriend.

hello people. i wake up early morning today;
on a Sunday? yeah, i did. i woke up at 7am.
had breakfast, which was Famous Amos Double
Chocolate Chips cookies. hmm. yummy! had my
bath and get ready to go to Adek's Sports Meet.

As usual, ibu and i are never early. haha! we
reach at 8.45am instead of 8.30am. by then,
there's no seat left for us. damn! so, whatever,
ibu and i stand. Adek was in the Green Team.

For the 'Pair me up' game, they won first.
As for the 'My hand Print', the came in 3rd.
Not bad for nursery kids. haha! Adek participate
in only two events, mentioned above. After his
event, ibu and i go look for seat. we sat under the
tree, also, under the hot scorching sun!

i feel like im dehydrating. seriously. i feel so weak.
i then cant wait for the event to end. & hell yeah,
finally, it ends. Adek collect his prize and zoom,
we went home. i watched We Are R.E.M and then
here i am, updating. No plans for today. Boyfriend
is asleep. he got back at 7am. Gonna text him later.
Slack till afternoon and head back home to do my
Sunday ironing of uniforms routine. haha!

Labels: dehydrate.

okay. its like im updating only once a week?
yeah, whatever. hmm. firstly, there's something
i wanna say to boyfriend.

"boyfriend, im so sorry of what happened.
didnt mean to hurt u. i hope our relationship
last. i realise how much i mean to u; how precious
i am to u. i love u, so2 much, too much. i
think i just dont know how to appreciate u.
im so sorry. anyway, i love u & ur family too."

last few days was nothing. all i did was spending
most of my time with dearest boyfriend. he's the
only one i need. he's my everything. younger bro,
hidayat keep on bugging me to get him a headphone.
damn, he's very irritating. yes, very.

second sister went to Thailand;Bangkok. She's coming
back today night. let see what she get for me. haha!
i hope not stuff which i can get in Singapore. haha!
i didnt say this to her, but i really miss her. keke.
cute kan saye? i hope she's fine.

O levels is coming and im not prepared, seriously.
im trying my best to cope with every subject, except
for GEOGRAPHY! Mdm Ow Chin Fong, u really got
me on my nerves. go to hell u ass! MT O level result
will be out next week. A1, A2 please. dont want B3 laa.
National Day is next week & im leaving to Johor Bahru
on Friday. haha!

My family will be complete with the arrival of our
Toyota Sienta. It is RED in colour, Singapore nmpk.
haha! i hope everything goes well.

Lastly, Haiqal, whoever who took ur stuffs, i hope
they suffer. they suck big time.

I guesss, that is all i have.