Thursday, May 21, 2009 Y 10:46 AM
As u can see, i've uploaded a few pics of Saesha. Yes, only a few. I dont hv time to snap pictures of her everyday as i spent most of my time just looking after her. As at today, she's 15days old and she's gaining weight. Today is the 21st, so, its my 18th month with bf. Happy 18th month hunney! Sorry i cant be with u to celebrate. i miss u alot, yes, alot! i love u alot too, dont doubt it(u said this to me before).
Im currently working as a temp staff at ITE HQ again. Previously, i was pregnant when i worked there, thre's no need to worry of anything. But for now, i worry alot! Guess why? The reason is because, i cant be apart from my girl even for a sec. Trust me, i would cry. Seriously. Ask all mummies, they'll feel the same way too. I dont know why, but, it's just natural. haha!
Being a mother is seriously not easy. Especially being a mother at my age, 18. I have to save alot to buy her milk powder, her diapers and all that she needs. & my girl drink the most expensive milk, SIMILAC! damn it's really costly. phew! That's one pressure,the biggest one. u would surely ask, why i dont breastfeed? Answer: im so not used to it. I tried twice, but i dont think she likes it, so, forget it luh. But, there's no harm trying again. I'll try when i hv the time.
Next, TIME! Time pass really fast! & i usually dont hv time to rest for a minute or two. Before i could even lay my body on the comfy bed, she starts to cry. oh my! terrible! the fact that she wakes up 2 hourly every night, is killing me! im losing my sleep more and more as days pass. Sure thing u would ask, hv i ever get angry? Answer: YES! I lost my patience sometimes, yes, sometimes. I tend to scream when she cries non-stop.haha! But, she keep on crying even when i shout, because, she knows, NOTHING. haha!
Until today, i havent snap a picture of myself with my girl because i think, i look a little bit ugly. So, i'll snap many2 pics, after confinement, if only my girl is still with me. Alright? Oh yes, one last thing, tell me, my girl looks more like me or bf? Because, i cant accept the fact when people say she looks more like bf, hmmph! But, for sure, she has my lips okay? haha!
I guess, that will do for today okay?
