Friday, April 3, 2009 Y 11:32 AM
Gdmorning earthlings! Haha! Im smelly and very smelly. keke. random. i havent bathe yet but i've eaten and had my breakfast. Wait, i've washed my face and brush my teeth eh. serious. So, my date with my 2 beautiful sister today is cancel because eldest sister, Aisyah will be going out with her bf and friends. Nvm, its okay. Afterall they're my sister and i cn meet them whenever i want. & yes, many2 thanks to eldest sister for getting me a dress. thank u so much!
Do u wanna know what i've been thinking abt lately? It is abt my stay in hospital soon. I've never been admitted to a hospital or stay overnight as a patient before, so, i was wondering, i will hv to stay in the hospital, for a day, at least, and it's frightening. *shivers* Because of the creepy stories i heard and read abt what happened in hospital, im scared.
I'll be having my routine check-ups at KKH as at next Thursday onwards. I cant believe im gonna be a mother and a patient in KKH? Cool shit! What worries me the most is the fees of the routine check-ups. Im not working. I save every cents i get from my family members, yeah, they give me money for my spendings actually, but, i hv to save it for the fees. I do craves for alot of things and its normal from any pregnant woman, but i cant seem to feed my crave most of the times when i think abt saving. so, i, let it go and forget abt it. I used to say i dont mind spending on food but for now, i do mind. I hv to mind. I'd rather eat whatever there is at home than spending on buying food which i crave for. Little S is my life and she's much2 more impt. I get myself into this, so, i hv to face it and be prepared. haiz. it's too late to say regret. but, i've never regret, i hv to accept what happened. A child is a blessing, so, why regret it? haiz.
As at today, it marks exactly a week since i last met bf. I wonder how he is doing right now? Is he okay? Have he eaten? Is he sick? Haiz. I have to sacrifice alot, i cant meet bf and to just contact him through phone, is not easy too. haiz. Somehow, hunney, if u happens to read my post, i really miss u and i mean alot. ily.
That will do for today. haiz.
