Thursday, February 19, 2009 Y 11:18 AM
Okay, hello people. the usual greetings before i start blogging. honestly, im lazy to update this blog, yeah, really, im lazy. & the reason i blog today, is because, i have noone to share my problems with, aisha is too busy with school, she needs to concentrate with her O's, i cant be calling her, expect her to listen to my story everytime & also i have nowhere to let this feeling out. As for my other gfs, i wouldnt wanna be distracting them with my problems, as, they are now happy, i can see. i keep everything to myself, i pretend to be happy and smile always, when deep down inside, im suffering. dont ever ask about bf, we did settle the kecoh-ness we had the other day & we're still good.
however, i cant be bothering bf. he keep on telling me he's stress. what more do u expect from me hunney? what is it that i didnt do for u? i give u all i have and tried hard to be by u when u needed me. u go out when u're stress, what about me? i can go nowhere if im stress. i rot at home and keep on thinking, what's wrong with u actually? u keep too many things from me, too much. i didnt expect, the one i love the most, lied to me? come on hunney, u know how much u mean to me and i never wanna dissapoint u, never. i go every extra miles just for u. i have many restrictions, one of it, i cant meet u. but somehow, i tried to convince ibu to let me out. do u know much it hurts me inside to make all the sacrifices just for u when u didnt even bother to see what i've done for u? hunney, u changed. u really do. from what i see, im no longer an affection in ur life. im someone, that u would now want to just pass u by. im no longer the one u cared for and love. im no longer the one u wanna share ur life with. that is what i see u as, now. sometimes, i feel that u have someone else. at times when u didnt answer my calls and reply to my txt makes me thinks that way. but, i know im stupid to think that way, because i trust u when u say, u love me.
how could i help u when there's no one around to help me? there's too many things that i've been thinking about lately. i understand what's going on with ur family, but, u can still see them around, what about me? i miss my family, i do. i know what's going on about us now is the cause to ur stress these days. i know i've been stressing u about us. i have to do that. i have to let u open ur eyes, mind and heart and see that we really have to commit, we have no time to waste. from what i see, whatever i say dont mean anything to u, what i say just gonna fall on deaf ears. haiz. bf, wake up, think. please.
