didie

2009-06-03T14:43:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY HAFIDZ.

GOOD LUCK WITH, THE ONE.

TAKECARE.

WITH LOVE,
FADILLAH.

2009-05-31T16:02:00.001+08:00

Didie in baju kurong luh. Nk gi keje kan. Sopan!

Mummy do the edits. (Perasan kan mak aku?)

Cute Tk Anak Saye Nie?

See her big mouth? Haha! My mummy is a yummy mummy kan.

With Love, Mummy.

That is, so much love laa kn?

2009-05-29T17:03:00.003+08:00

Short & Simple.

"Aku cinta boyfriend ku dan anakku."
Translation : "I love my daughter and my boyfriend."

Hafidz Bin Hadnan & Nur Saesha, you're loved,
u mean the world to me.

2009-05-28T14:14:00.000+08:00

Hello! Well, im not working today, so im spending my time looking after Esha and while she's asleep, im here to blog. i've been browsing through the net for looking for Esha's stroller, diaper bag and carrier/sling. But the most important one for now is her stroller. I cant be carrying her all the time on every check-ups, its tiring. At least, with a stroller, she can rest her body kn3? daripade kene dokong je. Maknye kurus, tk comfortable langsong. haha! Good excuse eh.

Its already 2pm and i havent had my bath yet. haha! but i already had my breakfast. I ate to slices of toast and a bottle of Yakult? Im happy that im not working today, so, i could look after my girl all by myself without having to trouble anybody. Also, if i leave her with someone else while im away to work, soon, she wont recognise her own mummy, right? So, the bonding between mother and child is very important or else she'll be mistaken someone else as her mummy. I dont want that to ever happen, never.

So, this will do for today luh, Esha is more impt than this blog. Alright? Toodles!

2009-05-27T13:18:00.000+08:00

phew!finally,all the preparation for the graduation which im working on is over!as soon as i reach workplace this morning, i continued what i left behind yesterday. in fact, i was late today, thanks to the traffic jam eh, so, i hv to leave abit late too later. i was late because i was busy snapping pictures of myself with Esha this morning that i didnt realise the clock is ticking. u would ask, why i snap pictures early morning. Answer: im fresh, my make-up is still fresh and im wearing baju kurong to work today. i wake my little girl up when actually she's sleeping soundly. Sorry eh kecik. haha!

Someone is turning 21 nxt wk and oh my,little did i realise, he's getting old. haha! he's a daddy at 21, okay luh tu. alright, i wouldnt wanna continue abt his birthday any longer. Question: why? Answer: Because it makes me feel as if im f***king useless & he knows why. FULLSTOP to this topic.

I would like to thank my little girl for not waking up so frequent yesterday night and for not causing me any problems! Thanks laa kecik. Esha woke up only 3 times last night and she didnt give me any headache. Everytime she cries, i gave her milk and soon after she finish, she went back to sleep. that is super easy and im so lucky she sleeps soon after drinking because i was very tired, seriously! To someone, im so sorry i didnt reply to ur txt, i was too tired. Sorry to keep u waiting.

If u're keen to know, i went to work with my sandals on today, but, i brought my slippers along just in case. haha! Also, i wont be working tmr until 2nd june. i'll be back on 3rd June, yeah 3rd! haha! hmm, this will do for today, im working on a new blogskin, so, toodles!

P.S: Bf, imy & ilysm! u're all i ever needed. Im sure we're strong enough to go through this and hold on to it. Dont give up. Love, Girlfriend.

2009-05-26T13:28:00.001+08:00

Alright,it's lunchtime now and im here, taking a break to blog. When i reached workplace this morning, i hv nothing to do, except for the work which i left undone yesterday, so, i hv to continue today. In other words, there's no new task/work for me to work on today. However, after quite awhile of no workload, here comes one stack of forms, which i hv to sort out according to the name on the list given. Sounds easy but doing that gives me a headache, much more, im lack of sleep(thanks to my little one).

I chatted with bf younger brother's gf. She told me she was looking a suitable job to help lessen the burden of her parents & also save up to get what she wants. She also mentioned that Esha hv bf's eyes and nose but only hv my lips. Nvm, fair enough because she said Esha hv the features of both, bf and i. Unlike, some who said Esha looks only like bf, damn. Haha!

Here comes the f**cked up thing. My sandals, the 'i-dont-know-what-thing', snapped! Now tell me, how on earth am i gonna go back w/o one side of my sandals? oh shit! Eager to know how it snaps? I was wiggling my toe and placing my feet under my seat's roller and to my surprise, i destroyed my own sandals! omfg! how am i gonna go back? this is so not what i want now. urgh! *stressed*

2009-05-25T12:58:00.019+08:00

MY GIRL ALSO HV BIRTHMARK ON HER LEFT PALM!

This is how i look now. (dont mind the background)

My Little Girl Sleeping Positions. (below)

Take 1.

Take 2.

Take 3.

Take 4.

The 'Kwang3' Face.

*Captionless*

See how big her mouth is? keke.

Upclose.

Crossed-Leg.

I Love MUMMY, ehem!

'Mummy, u're talking too loud.'

hmm.

Look at her nose and the reaction.

After bath.

2009-05-22T13:13:00.001+08:00

First, i wanted to change my blogskin but im lazy. My reason would be, i hv no time. haha! Im currently thinking what my girl is doing right now & also wondering if she's okay under someone else's care besides her mum. hmm. Im at work now and im very free. i've got nothing to do, for now. Anyway, let me share something with u. Surprisingly, my girl is just like her daddy. She sleeps during the day and does the opposite at night, which means, she stay awake at night, really. Just like bf. Somehow, i miss my girl and my bf now!

Oh yes! Im very excited too, about last night American Idol result show! Gosh, i cant believe it that my Kris Allen won! im overjoyed, so overjoyed! Let me reason out why Adam Lambert didnt make it. It is because Adam sings well only to his 'type' of song, i mean, rock? While on the other hand, Kris is very versatile. He can sing to almost anykind of genre, almost. Alright, that is through my opinion luh, i dont know about u people. Do you also agree with me when i say Kris Allen looks abit like Enrique Iglesias? I think they look, quite, alike.

Next, i hv alot of things i want to get for myself but i guess, for now, i just couldnt. haiz. i hv to save alot for my girl. She have a few check-ups coming her way next month. Not forgetting, the mummy too hv check-ups next month. Worry not, i believe i can survive and im doing this for my little one. She's all i ever needed.

2009-05-21T10:46:00.001+08:00

As u can see, i've uploaded a few pics of Saesha. Yes, only a few. I dont hv time to snap pictures of her everyday as i spent most of my time just looking after her. As at today, she's 15days old and she's gaining weight. Today is the 21st, so, its my 18th month with bf. Happy 18th month hunney! Sorry i cant be with u to celebrate. i miss u alot, yes, alot! i love u alot too, dont doubt it(u said this to me before).

Im currently working as a temp staff at ITE HQ again. Previously, i was pregnant when i worked there, thre's no need to worry of anything. But for now, i worry alot! Guess why? The reason is because, i cant be apart from my girl even for a sec. Trust me, i would cry. Seriously. Ask all mummies, they'll feel the same way too. I dont know why, but, it's just natural. haha!

Being a mother is seriously not easy. Especially being a mother at my age, 18. I have to save alot to buy her milk powder, her diapers and all that she needs. & my girl drink the most expensive milk, SIMILAC! damn it's really costly. phew! That's one pressure,the biggest one. u would surely ask, why i dont breastfeed? Answer: im so not used to it. I tried twice, but i dont think she likes it, so, forget it luh. But, there's no harm trying again. I'll try when i hv the time.

Next, TIME! Time pass really fast! & i usually dont hv time to rest for a minute or two. Before i could even lay my body on the comfy bed, she starts to cry. oh my! terrible! the fact that she wakes up 2 hourly every night, is killing me! im losing my sleep more and more as days pass. Sure thing u would ask, hv i ever get angry? Answer: YES! I lost my patience sometimes, yes, sometimes. I tend to scream when she cries non-stop.haha! But, she keep on crying even when i shout, because, she knows, NOTHING. haha!

Until today, i havent snap a picture of myself with my girl because i think, i look a little bit ugly. So, i'll snap many2 pics, after confinement, if only my girl is still with me. Alright? Oh yes, one last thing, tell me, my girl looks more like me or bf? Because, i cant accept the fact when people say she looks more like bf, hmmph! But, for sure, she has my lips okay? haha!

I guess, that will do for today okay?

2009-05-21T10:09:00.009+08:00

NUR SAESHA PUTERI HAFIDZ @ BIRTH.

THANKS TO MY DEAREST SISTER SHIDAH FOR THE SHOTS.

2009-05-12T14:26:00.001+08:00

Hello readers! im back & im proud to annouce, im OFFICIALLY a MUMMY to a baby girl. My princess, Nur Saesha Puteri Hafidz, was born on 6th May 2009 at 1903hours. She is 2280g heavy, 46cm tall and her head circumference is 31cm. My Expected Date Of Delivery(EDD) is on the 28th of May but i've given birth 22days early. How shocking? She's so attach to me that i hv to blog with only one hand now. haha! She's so cute that i cant take my eyes off her. Her daddy was the one who carried her first, instead of me. i was scared luh. But as time passes, im okay. I've learn how to carry a newborn, how to feed, how to bathe a newborn & also how to make a newborn 'burp' after feeding. I still cant believe that im a mother already. Haha! Since she's born before Mother's Day, i get the chance to celebrate Mother's Day for the first time which falls on last Sunday.

I'll be posting abt the labour story some other days and the experience of giving birth, the thing i wont and i cant forget. I'll post the pic too. I'll try to update a.s.a.p okay? I cant blog any longer because i have to attend to my little one. I've also lost many hours of my sleep! haiz! haha!

Till here, toodles!

2009-04-28T12:07:00.001+08:00

Go ahead just leave, can't hold you, you're free
You take all these things, if they mean so much to you
I gave you your dreams, 'cause you meant the world
So did I deserve to be left here hurt?

You think I don't know you're out of control
I ended up finding all of this from my boys
Girl, you're stone cold, you say it ain't so
You already know I'm not attached to material

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
My love

Yeah, what did I do but give love to you?
I'm just confused as I stand here and look at you
From head to feet, all that's not me
Go 'head, keep the keys, that's not what I need from you

You think that you know
(I do)
You've made yourself cold
(Oh yeah)
How could you believe them over me, I'm your girl

You're out of control
(So what?)
How could you let go?
(Oh yeah)
Don't you know I'm not attached to material?

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

So all this love I give you, take it away
(Uh, uh huh)
You think material's the reason I came
(Uh, uh huh)

If I had nothing would you want me to stay
(Uh, uh huh)
You keep your money, take it all away

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

Ooh, my love
(I'm taking back my love)
Ooh, my love

2009-04-28T11:27:00.002+08:00

2 weeks, i didnt blog. there's something going on, so, i cant blog daily like i used to. i decided not to blog these days. i, dont feel like blogging. im here just to change my blog song and to say, i really miss boyfriend, seriously. that's all.

2009-04-15T09:48:00.001+08:00

I love today! Wonder why? The weather is very nice. The wind is very strong and im loving it! Haha! It is very cooling. I wanna sleep again later but, i guess i cant. Im meeting my gf, Jaseema, today afternoon. I wonder when was the last we met? She is starting school this Friday as a Nursing student in Nanyang Poly. Good luck okay? & never2 forget me or i'll eat u up! Haha!

Im having cramps now and i wonder why. Dont tell me that Little S in coming out soon? Oh god, not now. Or maybe, it is because i didnt eat a proper meal yesterday? hmm. i've been tossing and turning in bed because nowadays, i cant seem to sleep peacefully. Very terrible! I can only sleep on my sides which i dont quite like it. I love sleeping on my tummy with my face on the side of course, which i no longer cant. Damn. Nvm, i'll get my peaceful2 sleep soon, i hope so, because, when Little S in out, that means, lesser sleep than ever! Gross! Haha! Nvm, im sure i'll do just good. Uhuh.

Seriously, i dont think i have anything to blog about for now, yet. It is still early morning right? Maybe i'll have alot to blog abt tmr? okay? toodles!

2009-04-14T14:37:00.000+08:00

First and foremost, Happy 46th(if im not wrong) Birthday Papa! I didnt txt papa because im scared to do so as i know he's still mad at me but, i do remember his birthday if no one else does. See, im a very concerned daughter. Eventhough papa is always full of anger, i know i hv the best father ever. He is concern abt his kids and his family. He nvr fails to fulfill his roles as a father and husband. Thank u papa.

Let me update a little about Little S okay? These days, Little S just cant stop moving for even a minute. I think as the time comes nearer, she's getting over-excited? just like me? haha! You'll see the world soon, very soon. Little S turns 34th week and im left to countdown for 6 more weeks or lesser, who knows she'll be out earlier, it is possible kan? Im making a list of stuffs for Little S. Just recently, i get Little S a baby's blanket. Its really cute. Im wondering what more is there for me to shop for?

I'll be going for 2 check-ups in a week and money is really the problem. Yet again, im saving every little2 cent, it counts okay? Siket2, lama2 jadi bukit kan? But in a day, i must a least spend a dollar, wonder why? It is because, i nvr fail to go to the shop to get myself either a packet of Orange juice or HL Milk. I must okay. That is why.

Oh yes, i have make my final decision abt Little S name. Little S is my first, so, i guess, i'll keep to the name which bf and i have agreed on. Okay? So, no more names here and there. I'll keep to my choice. Alright!

On the other hand, i hope bf is coping well. I dont know how he is doing but i just hope he is okay. I wonder when will i get to meet bf. hmm. We've been contacting only through text and calls which is also difficult to get through each other. So, i hope for the best for u hunney. U're loved. Bf, rmbr, dont ever2 text me and say i dont care abt u eh, i do. im always good, good at heart, always, eventhough i curse and swear everytime. haha!

2009-04-13T15:17:00.000+08:00

Hello all! Okay, firstly, the reason i didnt blog for the last few days is because ibu is not working and i cant get my hands on the laptop that easy. Haha! She would nag if i were to blog everyday. Since last Friday till Sunday, i had been rotting at home, i didnt go out. Seriously. Yet today, i went somewhere. I brought Farid to the Polyclinic as his eyes was swollen since yesterday and it worsen today. Ibu would normally bring her child to Raffles Medical, but this time, she asked to go to Polyclinic because she's having financial difficulties. Guess what? The total cost of Farid's medical bill today at Polyclinic was $29.20 because the medicine prescribe by the doctor was an expensive one and i was the one who paid for it. I used the money which i set aside to pay for my 2 check-ups nxt wk at KKH.

I was at the Polyclinic from 8:54am to 11am. How long is that? After the long2 wait at Polyclinic, Farid and i was feeling really hungry as we havent had our breakfast. Lucky nenek gave me $6 earlier. She asked me to buy her 2 pieces of prata and the balance is for me to share with Farid. So after buying nenek's prata, im left with $4+. I bought a large fries and i get Farid a hot fudge sundae since the money wasnt enough to get both of us a set meal each. How miserable is that? & now, im left with nothing in my wallet, but, nvm. Haha! Money really matters in Singapore.

Eventhough im hungry, i didnt eat when i reached home. I was too tired. I changed and i sleep. So, later after blogging, im gonna whatever there is in the kitchen. haiz! Today is the first day for ITE's April Intake students. Haha! I really miss my school days and of course my friends. Hope to see them real soon. I hadnt meet bf for more than a week! Terrible. Its not that i dont wanna meet, i just cant meet bf, so, i wonder when will i see bf again. Soon, i hope so.

Okay, i guess there's nothing more i wanna blog abt, so, this will do for today.

2009-04-08T15:00:00.000+08:00

If im given 5 wishes, firstly, i would wish to be a part of boyfriends' life and be by boyfriends' side 24/7. Second, i would wish for the best of everything for my family. Thirdly, i would wish to correct my mistakes. Fourth, i would wish to be a very reliable mother. Fifth, i would wish to turn back time. Okay, forget about the wishes, its impossible luh.

Alright, yesterday i met my beautiful beloved sister, just for a while. I wanted to get the dress which she bought for me so i could wear it for tomorrow's check up at KKH & i also asked her to drive me to MknShiok, to feed my crave for rojak. Relax, its not the Indian Rojak eh. Im so not gonna eat Indian Rojak after what happened recently. I ate the other type of rojak, sorry, i dont know how to explain. keke. But, its nice! Really. Even nenek say it's nice and she wanted to eat it again. Im so sorry nenek but i couldnt get it for u today. im CASHLESS and i cant travel anywhere, my ezlink is dead too. how miserable is that? All i hv in my fat wallet is only $0.25? Haha! Nvm, i dont mind so much abt money. Its okay. There's food for me to eat at home and im clever, u know why? Everytime busu (my uncle) went to send Farid to school, i would asked him to buy me food and when he bring it back, i would smile and say, thank u. that's all. I end up not having to pay for anything. keke. Nice trick eh.

Oh yes, Little S! 33rd week this week. 7 more week and im gonna be tickle-free. guess why? The reason is that, Little S is getting bigger and there's not much space left for her to move freely, so, every time she moves, it tickles! really! Sometimes i got frustrated because Little S will always move when im about to rest or sleep, how irritating is that? keke. Im gonna tahan for the next 7 weeks and when Little S is out, im gonna bite her! keke. Watch out eh kecik. haha! So, KKH, u'll see us tomorrow! Haha!

*Behind those smiles and happiness, lies miseries and sadness. Im missing u.

2009-04-06T12:21:00.002+08:00

Hello again Monday! As usual, im bored and i've got nothing to do. Firstly, i miss my family alot! i miss staying under one roof with them and i feel so comfortable at my own crib rather than being at someone else's crib. Forget abt it, i leave with no choice, but to endure the pain i've been keeping inside. I dont mind staying at home and not getting to go out and meet my friends, is still okay but i must meet bf, once a wk, at least? I hv my reasons why and no one understands it. So, why must i bother to share with anyone? I trust my bf. I wont think negatively abt bf unless someone starts poisoning my mind. I know bf is old enough to think between what's good and what's not and i hope he's aware that he have a big responsibility ahead of him.

Maybe to others, bf just dont care or whatever, but i bet u people just dont understand what he is going through. Everyone have problems but some dont like to share. We cant judge a book by its cover right? Whatever it is, i still love and miss my bf alot, i do.

Now, i dont know why but i dont feel like blogging any longer for today. i having a headache and its freaking painful. urgh. damn this headache. i guess, that's all i hv for today. toodles!

2009-04-03T11:32:00.001+08:00

Gdmorning earthlings! Haha! Im smelly and very smelly. keke. random. i havent bathe yet but i've eaten and had my breakfast. Wait, i've washed my face and brush my teeth eh. serious. So, my date with my 2 beautiful sister today is cancel because eldest sister, Aisyah will be going out with her bf and friends. Nvm, its okay. Afterall they're my sister and i cn meet them whenever i want. & yes, many2 thanks to eldest sister for getting me a dress. thank u so much!

Do u wanna know what i've been thinking abt lately? It is abt my stay in hospital soon. I've never been admitted to a hospital or stay overnight as a patient before, so, i was wondering, i will hv to stay in the hospital, for a day, at least, and it's frightening. *shivers* Because of the creepy stories i heard and read abt what happened in hospital, im scared.

I'll be having my routine check-ups at KKH as at next Thursday onwards. I cant believe im gonna be a mother and a patient in KKH? Cool shit! What worries me the most is the fees of the routine check-ups. Im not working. I save every cents i get from my family members, yeah, they give me money for my spendings actually, but, i hv to save it for the fees. I do craves for alot of things and its normal from any pregnant woman, but i cant seem to feed my crave most of the times when i think abt saving. so, i, let it go and forget abt it. I used to say i dont mind spending on food but for now, i do mind. I hv to mind. I'd rather eat whatever there is at home than spending on buying food which i crave for. Little S is my life and she's much2 more impt. I get myself into this, so, i hv to face it and be prepared. haiz. it's too late to say regret. but, i've never regret, i hv to accept what happened. A child is a blessing, so, why regret it? haiz.

As at today, it marks exactly a week since i last met bf. I wonder how he is doing right now? Is he okay? Have he eaten? Is he sick? Haiz. I have to sacrifice alot, i cant meet bf and to just contact him through phone, is not easy too. haiz. Somehow, hunney, if u happens to read my post, i really miss u and i mean alot. ily.

That will do for today. haiz.

2009-04-02T14:49:00.002+08:00

Im lazy to blog actually, but since i've got nothing to do, so, i blog. Haha! Today, i went to CCK Polyclinic with Ibu's younger son, adek. Reason for the visit, just for a piece of paper, a referral letter to hospital. Im not sick, im very fine, but for just a piece of paper, i waited for hours! Polyclinic katekn, sape yg tk tau. i reached at 11am and leave the polyclinic at 1+pm. phew! Shockingly, im still a child? I paid only $4.90 in total for the consultation and everything because i hv not turn 18 yet. Cool! They go by birthdate, not year!

Head to Lot 1 after the long2 wait, bought adek a cracker and mineral water to fill his tummy & i ended up having to buy him a McD Happy Meal to get him the toy. Oh, so wasted. I should hv gone alone! Walk around at Kiddy Palace to survey Little S's stuffs. As im getting tired and breatheless, i decided to make my way home. Adek didnt want to hop on a cab, so, we waited for the bus instead.

Guess what? At the bus stop, there's this old man wearing just boxers, lift up one side of the boxers and scratch his butt! what a freak?! yucks! He then when to a nearby tree and start touching his 'thing'. he was abt to pull it out and i turn away, who the hell wants to look at it?! He urinate at the tree, just like a little kid. yucks3! he's so smelly! seriously, not that i want to discriminate or whatever, but its friggin' true. What on earth he thinks he is doing? Hv some respect for others and hv some shame for urself luh. haiz! Old man, old man.

2009-03-31T17:45:00.001+08:00

Hello! Im here to blog after so long of no updates. First, im always excited to say this, Little S turns 32nd wk this week. 8 more weeks and i cant wait, seriously. Im exicted, very. My girl will be as beautiful as her mummy, haha! Whenever i go for Little S's check up, i think, i have the smallest tummy among all pregnant women there, despite the fact that im 8 months pregnant? My tummy is not so visible unlike them and my belly button is not 'popping' out like theirs too. So, this is what i always conclude to bf whenever we meet, i would say, im a sexy mummy, eventhough im pregnant! haha!

As at last Friday, my recent check up, Little S weighs approximately 1.4kg and my total weight is 50.5kg. The doctor said, i gained 0.7kg in 2weeks eventhough i told him that im stress these days. Thank god Little S is fine because i've been stressing out almost everyday. But this wk, im not. I get used to not meeting bf often and i do not want to think negatively of bf. I know bf still care and i realised that we keep on fighting because we didnt get to meet often. Sorry bf that i thought so of u previously.

Also, i would like to congratulate bf for his success, making it to the finals for the competition which he took part at JP. I love u hunney! U hv my support okay? Muah! Im so sorry that i didnt show interest in what u like. Its not that i dont like, but im afraid people might fall for my bf. keke. U're mine, no one else. Im always proud of my bf, who says i dont?

I wonder is there still anyone who reads my blog since i decided to private it? i hope there is people who still reads, if not, my updates will go wasted. haha! But nvm. I'll just update for those who still reads. So, thanks eh kalau kamu2 semua masih membaca. keke!

I have a date with my sisters this friday! Finally, im going out! Phew! Okay, if theres any pics i snap, i'll upload okay? So, that's all!

2009-03-21T16:51:00.006+08:00

NUISANCE TAGGERS, FUCK OFF!

I DIDNT MENTION THAT IM DECENT OR WHATEVER.

I KNOW IM NOT AND FUCK IT, I DONT NEED UR FUCKING

ADVICE OR JUDGEMENT ABT ME? SO, HELL YEAH, GO GET UR

OWN LIFE AND MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS ARSE!

I MENTIONED COUNTLESS TIMES, DARE TO TAG, LEAVE

UR NAME.

OKAY? THANKS FOR READING ANYWAY.

2009-03-20T10:39:00.002+08:00

Morning people. My plan didnt work. The plan on persuading bf to go back to camp didnt work. He dont wanna listen to me at all. I've tried all i can, i talk nicely until it we finally got into a fight, again. Well, he name me as 'Dillah Harron' in his phone now. Cool or what? Come on lah bf, open ur eyes, u're just wasting ur fucking time outside and u dont fucking gain anything? U're not working and all u do is wasting ur time sitting around with people who is not straight. u're wasting ur money also, but i wonder, in the first place, do u even hv money to go out?

That is first. Second, bf asked me to find someone else because he thinks he's a jerk and he's not good for me. Dont fucking curse urself when i say i will wait for u. You want me to find someone else? Let me ask u this, first. Can u resist seeing me with another guy? Would u ever wanna see me kissing and hugging someone else besides u? Would u ever want another guy to even hold my hands? Would u ever want to share me with another guy? If u could answer all those questions, then i'll know whether u love me or u dont. Everytime im by ur side, in ur arms, i'll ask u the same question everytime we meet, i'd ask, would u ever wanna see me in someone else's arms and share me with others? u replied, im yours & i cant be shared with anyone. u would even joke and say u'd label me as 'Hafidz's Owned". rmbr?

Thirdly, i want u to hv faith in me and trust me when i say, im willing to wait for u. i, NUR FADILLAH BTE HARRON, is willing to spend the rest of my life with u and i wont regret. i know u very well and i know one day u'll realise that i love u. i know u wouldnt hurt the one u love. So, think abt it.

2009-03-19T12:11:00.001+08:00

Today is another Thursday and it marks another week Little 'S' grow old. 30th week this week! im super excited! So, recently, people start asking about names and they suggested on some names. But i say, i have my own and i'll make my decision soon. For now, i name it, Little 'S'. Which gives u a hint that my preferred choice of name starts with the letter 'S'. Little 'S' name will be in two syllabus, just like mine. Mine is N..F, Little 'S' will be N..S. So, start guessing okay?

I've also started buying stuffs for my precious. I've spent alot, just for my precious. I would also like to thank all who have given me advices and support all these while. Thank u so much. Im also aware i've made the biggest mistake in life, but, i cant turn back time. Im so sorry. I promise i'll change, i'll try. I cant change overnight, it takes time. So, please give me a chance.

So, on the hand, abt bf. I've talk to his parents and sister about my decision. They agreed to me but they leave it to me to persuade bf. How on earth am i gonna persuade bf? Everytime i start to talk abt the topic, he'll give me a sucky attitude and he'll say, im nagging. Im doing this for u, for us, for Little 'S' and for ur family too. So, im gonna find a way to talk to bf. I hope it goes well, as planned. God, i need ur guidance and ur help. please help me in this and make me strong. haiz.

2009-03-18T10:46:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY DARLING SISTER,

NURAISYAH HARRON. I LOVE U MORE THAN

ANYTHING & I WISH U ALL THE BEST IN

EVERYTHING U DO! GOOD LUCK IN UR STUDIES,

SOON!

ALSO, HAPPY BELATED 20TH BIRTHDAY DEAR

SISTER, NURSHIDAH HARRON! KICK THE '1' OUT

AND BRING THE '2' IN! BE HAPPY & STRONG,

ALWAYS!

2009-03-18T10:42:00.000+08:00

im confused. very confused. but, i have to sacrifice and have to be strong to face it alone. i have to be ready to let bf go for sometime & to see him again soon. im aware, in times like this, i need bf with me, by my side, almost 24/7 but i cant. the decision i made, will make myself suffer, will make bf suffer. but i really have to, the longer bf is arnd outside, the longer he'll be going through hell. so, i have to make u go hunney.

im seriously not strong at all than i usually am. but, i really2 have to. bf, u have to go. i wish u could be with me all the time but the mistakes u've made, will part us for sometime. u didnt wanna listen to me, u say i keep on nagging when actually, whatever i say, is for ur own good, u refuse to listen. u said u need my help to help u change. i gave u my fullest support, but u neglect it. now, it happens again & the very long wait will soon begin.

i cant be selfish and decide on this myself, so, im gonna ask ur parents first. they have to agree with me because whatever i decide, i think, is the best for u and for everyone. hunney, i'll miss u for sure, i will. i thought the previous time i have to wait for more than 3 months was the last, but i didnt expect to have to wait even longer this time round. i cant turn back time, but, i cn only try to make things right for now. ur love make me strong and make me go on with us. i love u.

2009-03-17T10:15:00.008+08:00

SNAP THE PICTURES WITH 'PEOPLE',

NEVER WITH ME. WHO SAYS U DONT HAVE THE

LOOK? HUH? NVM. THANK YOU SO MUCH!

I ~~LOVE~~ U! :TO HELL WITH WHATEVER DECISION

U MAKE, IM THROUGH WITH IT. IM NEVER THE

ONE, NEVER. I DONT DIG IN THE SAME INTEREST

AS U, WE DIDNT REFLECT EACH OTHER. WE'RE

DIFFERENT, VERY. FIND SOMEONE UR TYPE, THE

ONE WHO DRESS THE WAY U LIKE, THE ONE WHO

HAS THE SAME PASSION AS U. HUNNEY, JUST LEAVE.

I LOVE YOU.

2009-03-11T10:52:00.000+08:00

Hello! Okay firstly, 'passerby', dare to tag? leave ur name then. yet again, it would be my pleasure to thank u for reading and being my persistent reader. Gosh, thanks! haha! I blog on 'bf is having an affair' thing is because i think, i miss bf too freaking much. Somehow, i met bf yesterday okay? In relationship there's the good thing and the opposite of it, which is of course, the bad. So, i realised. I trust my bf okay? Just that i think i get too overboard. My bf is not a kid anymore that i think he would want to fool me. He's not young. Maybe like u say 'every guy cheats now and then' & u did that too, maybe that's u people, not my bf. I guess u've not yet understand the meaning of 'LOVE'. FULLSTOP.

Next, i went back to Yuan Ching yesterday. Not to eat but to collect my not-pleasing-at-all cert and so-not-true testimonial. So yes, i met bf, like i mentioned earlier. I miss bf & as usual, bf is just so loved. Again, whenever bf is around, Little S stay still. Scared, maybe? haha! Relax, bf is not gonna eat u up. We're cool people, yet, crazy & bf say, 'i pandai, u kurang pandai, tapi tk bodoh'. Again3, i replied, 'yelah'. I'm suppose to do some shopping for Little S, but, thanks to bf that i didnt do the shopping at all. haha! we're too occupied with each other & watching Jackass, the oh-so-boring show that we forget. It's not boring if im watching it for the first time but, because i've watched it for a couple of times, it becomes, boring. So, I just bought one thing, only, for Little S. Sorry kecik. keke.

Progressing! 29th week dear! Muah! Burst, burst, burst! Haha! As usual, now, I WANT TO EAT! haha! Till the next post people!

2009-03-06T12:06:00.000+08:00

Hello Wello Yello! First, I've been bloghopping everyday to read, others' blog, of course. & yes, i've noticed something abt this couple. I'll drop to the Bf's blog first, read, yada2, then to the Gf's blog. Guess what? They blog about the same things? The Bf will blog abt his Gf & life, then on the other hand, the Gf, does the same. hey, serious! Cool or cute?

A pleasant surprise, i've started drinking Fresh Milk, be it, Magnolia's or HL's? i drink both, FRESH! No more chocolate or strawberry flavoured milk, its all FRESH now. Serious shit. I forced myself to finish it, for the sake of my Little 'S'. Haha! Besides fresh milk, i drink plenty of plain water, to stay healthy. I eat alot now, to also, stay healthy. I ate breakfast cereals, bread, fruits and of course, rice. To me now, i MUST eat rice everyday, i cant skip meals, no good luh. Haha! Oh yes! I also need plenty of rest eh? keke. So, after eating, I'll watch tv for awhile and.. u guess? SLEEP! That is my daily routine, yeah right. Haha!

This is a must-say-thing, i miss boyfriend! Muah! I'm sure Little 'S' miss boyfriend too. But, Little 'S' is very good when boyfriend is around. That is super true! I noticed it. Everytime i meet boyfriend, Little 'S' stay still. yes, true! Very good! But when boyfriend is not around, there goes Little 'S' again, cant stay still, super active! Phew! But, i like. Haha! Little 'S' turns 28th week this week. Progressing laa kan! Boyfriend & Little 'S' is loved! Muah!

Okay people, as usual, i wanna eat now, its lunchtime, pass breakfast already right? Rice time! Toodles!

2009-03-05T11:10:00.001+08:00

Updating, updating. hmm. I just realise that my blog looks dead & boring. My blog is filled with just, words, words & more words, no pictures at all. Great. Haha! But, the main thing about blog is for u people, who reads, to get my current updates, right or wrong? I didnt go out often, so, there's no pictures for me upload. Sorry.

Met Boyfriend on Monday at Lot One Shoppers Mall, for just about an hour or two. We went to shop for some stuffs, which was very2 interesting. I just cant wait for the day. Haha! Hunney, I've got a checklist for stuffs we hv to get, not for us but for the you-know-who, okay? I also get myself a black dress which looks, nice? Sexy, maybe? haha! Crap. I wouldnt waste money for myself if it is not necessary, seriously. i really need to save. But because, it's not advisable for me to wear jeans and stuffs, it would be better for me to put on a one-piece dress instead, which i think, it makes me looks good. Haha! Thanks alot boyfriend, for choosing the dress. For those who think, im an idiot who praise myself, go to hell, dont bother reading. This is MY blog, i have MY say, right?

Then again, on Tuesday, I went to the same place, again. But this time, with my sister, Shidah. Her aim was to get herself a pink coloured top for cute cousin sister 1st birthday party invitation next week. why pink? It's because her mummy set a Strawberry Shortcake theme, which everyone have to dress in pink, of course. & yes, my sister did get her hands on a pink top. As for beloved sis, hurry! Grab urs too! So, as u can see, they are really into the part-ay!

On Wednesday, the day which makes me miss boyfriend even more! I love u laa! Boyfriend is my current addict. Haha! u're so2 loved! Muah!

Today? As usual, pet society, blog, eat, sleep. Okay? Great! Im gonna eat now, so, toddles! Oh yes, 3 more days & girlfriend Aisha turns, 18!

2009-02-25T15:16:00.002+08:00

i blog a little late than usual today. the reason is because im addicted to, again, Pet Society & i cant stop playing the game. Haha! yeay, 27th week! progressing laa sey. okay, lame. im seriously very2 bored i tell u. Everyone is asleep & im going to rest too, soon.

i've got nothing to blog about, seriously. just extremely excited & i cant wait for the 28th. Haha! i have something really very important to say, which is, I MISS BOYFIREND, LIKE, ALOT? eventhough i know he didnt read my blog that often, i still hope he'll pay a visit sometime?

Today, i think, im proud to say that I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND ALOT & I DONT REALLY CARE ABOUT HIS LOOKS OR WHATEVER. im NEVER ashame to walk with bf, who cares anyway. he's mine, not yours, so, mind your own business eh. im not that pretty to get a good-looking bf? im not that perfect to get a perfect bf too. somehow i think im lucky i have my bf, he's all i need. i think bf is good-looking enough for me, dont bother abt the pimple or whatever thing on bf face, due to bad weather conditions & dirty2 environment, caused that. bf still look good.

that's all, i wanna eat & sleep! toodles!

2009-02-23T12:42:00.000+08:00

I've reached another level in Pet Society! Haha. yeah, lame. But uhuh, im excited. Okay, lets start! Now, im trying to put all the stress aside & im gonna be strong, hope so. Im tired of lying on the bed and worry about things that i practically shouldnt. I must learn to be patient, understanding & be more relax. Eventhough somehow i think i've already learnt.

Next, yes, before i even forget, Happy Belated 15th Month Anniversary Bf! You're so loved! Dont think that i forget abt my own anniversary just because i said 'belated'. I did wished bf on the very day itself okay. Just that i blog abt it a few days after. So, dont bother. Nothing much to say, just a simple, wo ai ni? okay? muah!

& thank u so much my dear 'passerby' for tagging and for being my persistent reader. Much appreciated. But hello, if u dont know the real truth, dont go spreading abt it. Anyway,if u still insist of knowing the truth, i know u would go around asking. Hmm. Great, keep talking about me, because u're making me extra famous. Haha!

This is the exciting part! I miss Yuan Ching! Haha! I miss going around disturbing people, seriously. But, come on, i've never miss the teachers there okay? Except for the relief teacher named, Mr Hafidz? As u cn see, he have the same name as bf? so, why not? haha! & also, the thing i miss the most in Yuan Ching is, the FOOD, of course! yes! Haha! Now, im craving for Mee Soto @ Yuan Ching. Haiz!

Its 12:39pm and i havent had my breakfast, so, im gonna eat my lunch now. So, tkcr people & thanks alot3 for spending ur precious time reading my post. muah!

2009-02-20T11:24:00.000+08:00

Two slices of toast & a cup of Hot Cadbury Chocolate drink for breakfast today. How fantastic? Haha! Thanks alot to my best uncle in the world for buying the 3-in-1 Cadbury powder, lots and lots of chocolates & some other nice2 stuffs to eat. im loving it! Yesterday i had McD Hotcakes for breakfast, again, because i had it with bf on Monday, yeah, Monday. Another big2 thank u to grandmother for paying the bills for me, hehe, i ordered the food, instead of going to McD itself to buy, because im lazy to bathe? haha! I had my shower at 4pm yesterday, if it's not for hunney, i wont do so till night. oh2, bocor rahsia aku. keke.

Im super duper bored at home i tell u. i got nothing to do besides, eating, blogging & sleeping. im so gonna gain weight soon, very2 soon. really! The reason to that is because, i eat & sleep almost everyday! Tmr is saturday & yes, it's weekend. It used to be fun for me but no longer fun for now. duh~ i just hate weekends now. That is because, bf, will go out with his friends & yada2, hmm2, come back home super duper late i tell u, never early. Put that aside, the other thing is that, bf will wake up, also, super duper late too, because he came back super duper late the previous night & sleep super duper late. woah, that's super duper. haha!

My current addict now is, playing Pet Society @ Facebook? yes! haha! it's awesome i tell u! my pet is very cute. aww~ So, now, im gonna stop blogging & continue playing my game okay?

& yes, despite being so happy, im ~~not~~ happy at all, im still stress. yes, i really am.

2009-02-19T11:18:00.005+08:00

Okay, hello people. the usual greetings before i start blogging. honestly, im lazy to update this blog, yeah, really, im lazy. & the reason i blog today, is because, i have noone to share my problems with, aisha is too busy with school, she needs to concentrate with her O's, i cant be calling her, expect her to listen to my story everytime & also i have nowhere to let this feeling out. As for my other gfs, i wouldnt wanna be distracting them with my problems, as, they are now happy, i can see. i keep everything to myself, i pretend to be happy and smile always, when deep down inside, im suffering. dont ever ask about bf, we did settle the kecoh-ness we had the other day & we're still good.

however, i cant be bothering bf. he keep on telling me he's stress. what more do u expect from me hunney? what is it that i didnt do for u? i give u all i have and tried hard to be by u when u needed me. u go out when u're stress, what about me? i can go nowhere if im stress. i rot at home and keep on thinking, what's wrong with u actually? u keep too many things from me, too much. i didnt expect, the one i love the most, lied to me? come on hunney, u know how much u mean to me and i never wanna dissapoint u, never. i go every extra miles just for u. i have many restrictions, one of it, i cant meet u. but somehow, i tried to convince ibu to let me out. do u know much it hurts me inside to make all the sacrifices just for u when u didnt even bother to see what i've done for u? hunney, u changed. u really do. from what i see, im no longer an affection in ur life. im someone, that u would now want to just pass u by. im no longer the one u cared for and love. im no longer the one u wanna share ur life with. that is what i see u as, now. sometimes, i feel that u have someone else. at times when u didnt answer my calls and reply to my txt makes me thinks that way. but, i know im stupid to think that way, because i trust u when u say, u love me.

how could i help u when there's no one around to help me? there's too many things that i've been thinking about lately. i understand what's going on with ur family, but, u can still see them around, what about me? i miss my family, i do. i know what's going on about us now is the cause to ur stress these days. i know i've been stressing u about us. i have to do that. i have to let u open ur eyes, mind and heart and see that we really have to commit, we have no time to waste. from what i see, whatever i say dont mean anything to u, what i say just gonna fall on deaf ears. haiz. bf, wake up, think. please.

2009-02-15T11:29:00.003+08:00

okay, firstly, u would think my update this time would be about V.day? oh, come on. im not blogging about that. V.day is so not in favour this year. i had a terrible or should i say horrible fight with hunney? enough said, i didnt met hunney on V.day. things didnt go so well these days. everyday, as days pass, it becomes even worst. i dont know why.

my weekend is boring. thanks to 'you' who keeps me company every minute without fail. i eat with u, sleep with u, share the pain with u and feel u growing and progressing everyday. i cant wait to see u sweetheart. i just cant wait to hold u. now, u're the reason why i mark my calendar, i start saving and spend wisely. thank u, u're the light of my life. i love u.

On the very day which most couples dedicate their love for each other, i, on the other hand, marks the end of my love journey with someone i cherish the most, the one i love & the one who gives me 'the light' which will be with me all the time to replace him when he's away, i love u, i miss u, always. see u when i see u.

2009-02-11T12:13:00.000+08:00

"BOYFRIEND, ADAPT, LEARN & LIVE WITH IT."

2009-01-29T14:24:00.002+08:00

Hello wonderful readers! Again, im at work & my hunneybunch is in camp. im bored, but this time its not because i got nothing to do, it's because i have plenty of things to do! Seriously. Okay, let me blog abt what im gonna wear tmr. Tmr, for the first time, im gonna wear baju kurong(malay traditional clothing) to office. how cute is that? haha! Lately, i've been eating quite alot! Especially since i start working at ITE HQ, i serious ate alot! Lucky the cost of the food is affordable.

Since im staying at cck with my aunt, its abit troublesome for me to go to work daily. i have to make 3 trips before i can reach office than my usual 1 trip from my place. haiz! i leave 20mins early than usual too. But nvm, i have to do this for the best, only some knows why. Its hard to meet bf nowadays, due to some issue we're dealing with, so, i have to TAHAN! haha! Sayang, saye jauh dimata tapi dekat dihati. i love u always.

Okay, im too busy to update any longer than this. So, i'll end it here.

P.S: bf, we have to hold on, we'll go through the tough times together, u're loved & i miss you. haiz.

2009-01-21T15:41:00.002+08:00

good afternoon readers! haha! im currently doing nothing. hmm. actually, im munching on chips. haha! im at work and im done with whatever things assigned to me & now i got nothing to do to wait till 6pm, which is till office hour ends. i love everything at ITE HQ, like i say, the food especially! i ate alot2 nowadays. that is very good for my health. i also love eating breakfast cereal & drinking milk. see how healthy i am? haha!

oh, before i forget, HAPPY 14TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY HUNNEY! I LOVE U LIKE NO OTHER & NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR U. IM OWNED, BY U & IM YOURS. HUNNEY, FINALLY, WE'RE COMPLETE, U KNOW WHAT I MEAN. I LOVE U ALOT! MUAH!
& yes, its been 14 days since i last seen boyfriend! woah! that is long! haiz! why do guys have to serve NS? how irritating is that? haha!

yesterday, i went for the interview @ Raffles Dental Centre, it was okay but it was scary too. haha! that is for me to know and u to find out eh. haha! damn, they make me wanna change my mind. haha! but nevermind, i'll think about it first & if im really keen, i'll ring the company back. hmm. but for now, i think, im, not interested? haha! oh yes, last sunday, something happened, accident! haha! the back mirror of my family's cute Toyota Sienta broke! thanks to darling sister, aisyah! haha! she was stress throughout the day. haha! cute! however, she already got it fix this morning. phew! & we didnt have to pay a single cent as there's something called insurance or something?

also, yesterday, i got myself a KAPPA shoe, aww. i like! thanks to dear sister, SHIDAH, who paid for it first. haha! & yes, i'll hv to pay her back when i get my pay. haha! okay, i've nothing more to blog about, but, frankly, im lazy, actually. haha! muah!

2009-01-14T11:50:00.002+08:00

Hello! This time, im blogging early morning is not because im alone at home and im bored. It is because im at work. haha! I'll be working at ITE HQ for sometime only. Haha! But my everyday thing at work is, basically, nothing. yeah right. im paid for doing little2 things such as scanning of ic? haha! Cool! Oh, the food here, it taste just as great as the food in my previous school, Yuan Ching, that is.

Finally, i got to eat at School Canteen! Mee Soto! Nice! Yeay! Okay, my results wasnt good at all, figures. But nvm, i cant expect to pass or get good grades as i didnt put in any effort to study/revise. So, i dont mind. 10 minutes more from now & its, LUNCHTIME! Haha! I had Chicken Chop yesterday. I guess, i'll have rice today? I wanna try something different everyday. But today, i'll eat at the office instead of the Cafeteria. Its full with students! Sungguh aku RIMAS.

& yeah, so, despite the disappointing result (which i dont quite mind), i've made up my choice to take up Traineeship In Dental Assisting. Learn & Earn at one time. I've applied for the dental at Raffles Dental Surgery @ Raffles Hospital. That is my decision & im happy with it.

Next, i havent meet boyfriend for a week already! We didnt fight throughout except for one day which i got so sensitive, maybe? haha! But, we're still good & even better! I miss u hunney, alot more than u do. Okay, im gonna get ready to rush down and buy my food, so, thanks alot for spending your time reading my blog. here's a kissy kiss for u, muah!

Oh wait, lastly, senyap jugak 'org tu' eh. Dah penat ke?

2009-01-07T11:39:00.002+08:00

Hello readers! I suddenly feel like blogging today, seriously, suddenly. Haha! Oh, i guess i'm a little too late to say, HELLO 2009? Okay heck, but i did celebrate New Year okay? i was with my love & his friends. & for the first time, i dressed like how boyfriend wants it. When im all set, all dressed-up, boyfriend says, "woah, i know how to dress a girl up now". Haha! There's alot happening lately, but, that is all for me to know. Im very happy with what i have right now & im grateful. Thanks alot to, first, my family, who makes everything in life possible, second, boyfriend, the one who stands by me everytime i need someone & lastly, my girlfriends, who gave me countless support & advices. Thank u so much!

2009, a whole new year. Despite the happiness & excitement, there's still something going through my mind. I have a big challenge to go through, soon & i hope im ready. This challenge im facing, will change my life totally. i wonder how im gonna go through it. I need to be at my best to do this. Haiz. Im not ready to lose the one i love, my cranky family, my eldest sister especially, im so not ready. But, to hold on to my current love for my sister, i have to let go something that means so much to me & im not willing. This have been going through my mind everyday. Okay, cut it out, im gonna cry infront of my lappy soon. shoosh!

My daily activities now is, staying at home everyday, watching dvds, txt boyfriend when he's in camp, sleep, wake up, make my way to JP2 if there's a need, if there isn't, i'll just rot at home. that's what i do everyday. Haha! im being very thrifthy (did i get the spelling right? i hope so.) nowadays. i didnt spend alot on stuffs but i did just on food. sorry boyfriend, if i have been eating alot lately & u'll have to pay for it. Boyfriend & i have been very boring too. Most of the time, we just lay back & spend our time only around Jurong? we didnt travel much, not even to town. Thanks to me because im lazy to walk, so, boyfriend have to agree with me and waste most of our time at home, sleep & eat. Cool right? Yeay!

Next up, i cant wait for the release of 'O' level results, not that i cant wait to get to know my results??!! i cant wait to go back to Yuan Ching to eat! The canteen is ready & the vendors are back in action! i miss the taste of Yuan Ching food! I cant wait! Wee!

Can i end it here? Oh, no, not yet. Becky! If u're reading this, i miss u a whole lot! There's alot i want to share with u! Aww~ not forgetting, my dear Jaseema, u're missed too, alot3! Where hv u been?

Okay, im done.

2008-12-22T11:25:00.000+08:00

Yeay! Lets celebrate! Boyfriend's back & it's 2 more days and finally, nomore Gift-Wrapping! I'm sick of wrapping gifts laa. haha! & yeah, as u cn see, my tagboard is in chaos? haha! whatever, somehow, i like it to be tagged, yeah, like, uhuh. haha! I didnt turn up for work again, today. I cant sleep yesterday night and im really tired. Seriously. Slept over at my place yesterday and it was, fun! i miss my room & my whacky2 sisters! Oh, also my freaking brothers? not forgetting, my parents too?

Wanna know something? I've been like meeting Bf often? But sadly, not on his release day. I was too busy with work. I didnt fetch him nor waited for him at his crib. I was at work when he's release. Can u imagine how happy i am when he called? i was over2-joyed! haha! I've been meeting him from the next day onwards, he fetch me from work everyday! How awesome? On one of the days, i didnt expect him to turn out early as he dont usually turn up early, he reached at 4.15pm. I was supposed to end work at 4.30pm but as it was too busy, i was held back till 5+pm. So, i made him wait for like, an hour? haha! Sorry sayang. keke! Whatever it is, i love him & im sure he do too.

& finally, i want this year to end a.s.a.p! 2009, a whole new world, a whole new chapter. haha! yeah2! & wait! CONGRATULATIONS GF, AISHA MOK! I KNOW U CN DO IT. TKCR! WORK HARD FOR O'S NXT YR!

2008-12-16T15:16:00.000+08:00

Ready, Set, Go!
Okay whatever. I'm bored.
Current mood: sad, dishearten.
Current thoughts: Sweet memories which i cant let go.
Currently: weeping, yeah, crying.
Soon, something that i will miss: Late nights miss calls which i made to (insert name) everytime i dreamt of something scary. & the feeling of always being pampered. Finally, dialing a no. 8*8*2*6*. Waking up 6.30am to wake someone up to work!

& Finally, i think im a good companion & friend. Sorry that i discriminate u.

2008-12-16T14:54:00.000+08:00

Haha! I took leave from work today; for no possible reason, but i claimed that i was feeling unwell. Great! But, come on, throughout the whole assignment, this is my first time not coming to work. Thursday, i change shift with one of my colleagues because that is the day Boyfriend will be coming back & im overjoyed! i decided to take the early shift so i can meet Bf eventhough i cant fetch him like the previous time. Somehow, i would like to thank those who have been kind enough to keep me company throughout the days Bf is not around. Thank u so much, if u think, i dont appreciate it, then, okay, nvm. I leave it to u then.

Okay, next. Someone says that im like a kid; Kanak2 Strawberry. Oh come on, i agree 100% to the claims made by that someone. I know, u know that im cheeky & playful; like a kid. So, if u dont like it, whatever to that because no matter what, be it im like a kid or what, u've once love me & fall for me and i dont give a damn to what u say because, my Bf loves me; for who i am & not for what i have. Unlike u, maybe, im too young to u eh? Just because u've grown a year older lately. Oh, okay. U said i always blog abt my Bf, of course i will, there's alot abt him to blog abt. Any problems with that?

So boy, this is for u, "Terime kasih banyak2 sebab kau kater aku mcm bdk2, aku terime segale ape yg kau ckp sebab aku tau, kau kenal sgt perangai aku. Kalau mmg aku mcm bdk2 pade mata kau, pegi carik pompan yg dewase sgt mcm kau, jgn terhegeh2 nk carik aku. Pegi carik pompan yg setaraf ngan kau, yg lepak bwh blok mcm bdk tkde rumah, yg tindek sane sini, yg penoh dgn tattoo, yg fanatic sgt mcm kau. Itu kau. Senang ckp, minahrep. Aku cukop happy ngan ape yg aku ade, walaupon kau tk abes2 ckp Hafidz tk slalu ade ngan aku. Walaupon die tk slalu dgn aku, aku tk pernah rase die beban utk aku. Cukop laa kau kutok aku. Go get a life."

okay people, i've got no mood to blog already, thanks to the so called 'Abg2' guy, the one who thinks he's big and as if he knows, everything. Btw, Happy Belated 18th Birthday boy, dont ever thing im getting u anything, ud ont deserve it. Tkcr.

2008-12-03T09:22:00.000+08:00

Hello all! it seems like i've been busy; maybe. im keeping myself busy, actually. haha! im counting down, 15 more days & Bf, is back. let me just blog abt me, first. i've been fine. Tired working everyday & handling fussy customers. Also not forgetting, bossy colleague, a 16 yr old kid, yeah right, kid. He's so fuck up! urgh! its like less than a month and my assignment with Robinsons will end. But i, decided to continue working there from 25th-28th Dec & 2nd-4th Jan. That is because, i have nothing better to do & it's only like for a short period. So, why not?

My life now is seriously very2 boring. My daily routines will be like, waking up in the morning, breakfast, get ready for work, work, go back, sleep & wake up again the next morning. See? Gross! All my colleagues have been complaining & saying the same things too. haha! & customers nowadays, just dont understand simple english, seriously. they always get me on my nerves but fuck, i have to just, relax & SMILE! that is so stupid! i have to SMILE when im angry, that's ridiculous! urgh! Lovely Manager, Sharifah was great, except for Evelyn. She s****. haha!

im craving for Mee Soto & finally i got to eat it! but shoots! i ate that alone, yeah, alone, while waiting for ibu. & guess what, because of my clumsiness, the soup/gravy of the mee soto, splashed into my eye & it was really painful!! of course it is, i added chilli padi in it! When i go to the stall again to get something for ibu later on, the shop owner was like saying (in malay), "dear, was it too spicy that ur tears roll down ur cheeks?". i smile & walk away. haha!

Okay all, i cant spend much time in front of my lappy, i hv to get going & get ready for work soon. i'll update again when im free. haha!

2008-11-25T09:28:00.000+08:00

Firstly, i miss boyfriend & i really need him NOW. Read that? I NEED, NOT WANT. I dont want to talk about boyfriend that much, bet i think, only my girls & close friends know what's happening. i'm in DILEMMA. Serious shit. I dont know what to do about some private stuffs. My friends are too busy for me to consult. In fact, im busy too. Busy working, everyday. I have exactly a month more before my assignment ends with Robinsons. Thought of continuing but with the hectic pressures and the tired-ness im facing eventhough i did nothing, i dont think i can continue.

This is stupid, i work only for 4hours a day but i get tired easily, i know why if u guys dont. On Wednesday & Thursday, i have to work long hours. Damn! Wednesday, i'll be working from 11am - 4.30pm & 6pm-11pm. Thursday, will be from 11am-3pm & 6pm - 11pm. Crazy right? God! On top of that, this month's pay, i cn hardly spend for myself. I have to help ibu to pay something. Nevermind about that. I cn wait for the next pay. Gross! Haha! So, whatever to this.

Oh, i met boyfriend's dad yesterday. Bf's dad wanted to pass me my atm card & it was quite late. Bf's dad reach ibu's place at 11pm, i nearly fall asleep. He talk to me for a while & asked me to plan ahead if bf & me is serious about us. All i said was, i'll wait for bf and talk about this with him. Bf's dad also talk about some other stuffs which im guilty of, now. oh my, bf, i need u now, we have to discuss quick. haiz!

& lastly, i went back to my crib yesterday, just for awhile. mama, abg, amid & kakak was around. i just miss home! but, i dont think im ready to go back there, yet. So, when time permits, i'll go back. i miss kakak especially, she's all i need besides bf. she taught me how to be me. i just love her, the way she always did to me & the way she is. god bless u kakak.

& last2, lastly, i think i hv something in mind for Jaseema already. Haha!

2008-11-19T09:30:00.000+08:00

Hello wonderful people! Finally, i find the time to blog, yeah, early morning. The reason why i didnt update is because im too busy with Mr Boyfriend & work. I've started working last Thursday & work is fun! i love the people around me. They are nice people & cool! My working hours was from 1230-1630 hours. But however, i dont have the time to blog because i didnt go back home straight after work & i reach home quite late, so, by the time i reach, im beat. That is because Mr Boyfriend fetch me from the 1st day of work until Sunday, he have to go back to camp. Now, i'll go back home myself on Monday to Thursday. Mr Boyfriend say, most probably he cn fetch me on Friday. Weekends is a MUST to fetch. When i reach home, I clean myself first & off to bed. Then, the next day i'll wake up at around 10am. Eat, sit around for a while & get ready for work. See? That is why i got no time to blog. Haha!

I just love decorating my counter. It's so fun! The days i like working is during weekdays because people are working, most of them wont shop on weekdays. But, i hate weekends! There's plenty! Stress sometimes but, my colleagues and i can still manage the long queue. Nothing is impossible. What i can say is that, my work is very relax, really. When im tired of standing, i'll sit. When im bored, i'll text Mr Boyfriend. See? & if there's nothing to do, Suhailah & i will start telling grandmother stories. Haha!

Im just so fed-up that i cant go for Red Camp! Shoots! That is because, again, im working. Damn it! So, this year, im gonna get Christmas Gifts for my colleagues, not forgetting, my GIRLFRIEND, Jaseema. Oh, & Mr Boyfriend too. Okay, its already 0930 and i better get going. Im late for work yesterday, 1/2 an hour late and i vent my anger at Mr Boyfriend, haha! There goes my incentive bonus when im late for more than 15mins! F*** my ezlink card for that! urgh!

Mr Boyfriend is in camp now and so, see u this Friday hunney! Muah! I love Mr Boyfriend, okay?

2008-11-10T11:52:00.001+08:00

So, yeah, im back here to blog. Its been months since i last blogged, right? Oh, come on, its not that im busy with the F***ING 'O' LEVELS? i was just sitting for the paper, for the sake of, nothing. yeah, that's for real. School was very boring & how am i gonna concentrate if there's many things going on here & there? Stress. That's the word. But, dont think i'm in any kind of misery. Big No2 okay? I'm well & doing good, not that good when my BOYFRIEND is by my side. Save the BOYFRIEND story for later, it'll be interesting, yeah, to me, i dont know if it is to u.

Tomorrow is my last paper. Finally! I just hate going to school for a couple of hours & having to wake up early morning, which im so, not used to it nowadays. Well, look, i've been waking up late since prelims are over. That was also the last i stepped into YUAN CHING SECONDARY SCHOOL. But, i would like to thank YCSS for having me in the school for 5 years & having me to meet my BESTEST GIRLFRIEND in there during my first year, indeed, my first day. She's no other than, JASEEMA. She's the one i share EVERYTHING with. & when i say EVERYTHING, it's really EVERYTHING. I can talk to her about ANYTHING, she understands. Thank u so much ma for being patience with me despite the nonsense i did & the irritating things i did sometimes. But, however, u can tolerate. Aww, haha! I love u alot more than my BOYFRIEND but a little bit less than MY ELDEST SISTER, AISYAH. She's always my FIRST! Okay shoots! Tomorrow will be the last day i'd be seeing Jaseema in school & she said she bought me something. Holly shit! I've spent 'my' money on pants, for work. Okay damn, so Ma, can i get u the thing on my very first pay, together with your present for your SWEET 17(FINALLY), HAHA! That will be even a big boom. Sorry, im not the type of person who saves, like you do.

Now, im gonna blog about WORK! Hell yeah, WORK?! Okay, I've never been in the working world. So, im kind of, nervous & scared. But whatever, I'll start to commit this Thursday, on the 13th Nov - 24th Dec 2008. Tomorrow will be the training, haha! I've collected my uniform, lucky its just a nearly plain black polo-tee. I fit on Size XS. They wanted to issue me Size S, but it's too big. So, i grab the XS instead. I'm so excited! Thanks to Suhailah for the information on the Job Interview, we went on Thursday. It goes like, as per normal, the interviewer would say "We'll call you within a week if you're shortlisted.". Right? It was Wednesday, almost a week & they didnt call. So, i called Suhailah & asked her out for another interview, she agreed. That afternoon, i got a call from an unknown no. & my prepaid was low. Thought of not answering it but im afraid if it's from 'them'. I answered & i say, "Sorry, my prepaid is low, im topping up now & i'll call u back, bye!". So, of course, i top up my phone and return the call. Its from "them" & i was so excited! On the other hand, im worried if Suhailah didnt get the job. So, i called her soon after & she said, she got it too! Phew, what a relief! You know how it feels right? When someone recommend(did i get the spelling correctly?) you & you got the job, yet she didnt? It feels awkward right? That is what im afraid of. Oh, i almost forgot to tell you where i'll be working at. I'll be working at Robinsons @ Raffles City.

Next, my Boyfriend, he is the reason why i didnt blog for sometime & why i decided to blog today. Boyfriend was away since 6th Oct, he leaves me crying for most of the time. That is for me to know & for you to find out. You know i can't be apart from Bf? He's the reason why im still smiling. He's my everything. & i finally blog, today, is because Boyfriend is coming back to me, to his family too. HAIQAL! The waiting & the sorrows is finally OVER! haha! We'll be smiling again! Thanks alot Haiqal(Bf's younger bro) & Bf family, for being there for me & giving me the countless support & advices. You all are the best! As for Bf & me, the 'snail mail' is over too. But, its kinda cool writing letters to each other. Its very sweet though. Haha! Whenever Im down, I'll read his letters and reminisce. Boyfriend, I Love You, no matter what. I'll stand by u like u did too. Im glad that i got you!

2008-10-11T11:59:00.000+08:00

HAIQAL, IM FEELING WHAT U'RE FEELING TOO. IT HURTS DEEPLY; I KNOW. ME TOO, I ALSO HAVE 2 THINGS TO WORRY ABOUT TOO. ONLY U KNOW WHAT IS IT. 6TH OCTOBER WAS THE LAST WE SEE HIM. IT HURTS DEEP INSIDE BUT I HOPE HE'S FINE. ALL WE CAN DO NOW IS TO PRAY HARD AND HOPE HE'S DOING GOOD IN THERE, ALSO, WE CAN PRAY HARD TOO THAT HE'LL BE OUT SOON; JUST BEFORE WE KNEW IT. HAIQAL, I LOVE UR FAMILY JUST LIKE I LOVE MINE. TKCR BRO.

TO ALL, I AINT BLOGGING TILL THE DAY COMES THAT I HV TO.

LOTS OF LOVE,
NUR FADILLAH.

2008-09-28T19:11:00.001+08:00

haiz. lately, life hasn't been good. 3 more days to raya and im not excited. i was force to go to JB today, which i seriously dont want to. i have 2 reasons why; dont bother to ask okay. im not feeling quite well these days. im worried about something but i guess i hv to keep that to myself. i've been busy helping mama with the cleanings at home since raya is drawing nearer. its very tiring, i swear! lucky me, i didnt fast on the day i clean the windows and bake the raya cookies.

until today, i still have alot to do. i have to help to clean ibu's window. i wonder how i'll manage that within a day, which is tmr. haiz. i have to try. i havent get my heels yet & its like only few days more. i seriously have no mood to celebrate. i didnt get much stuffs this year. i didnt even go to geylang, yet. how abt that? fasting month is ending soon and i havent go to geylang. the previous plan to go with kakak was cancelled.

whatever. im gonna wrap this up now. i miss you. but, i dont think u feel anything w/o me though. hope u're doing fine, wherever u are.

2008-09-23T15:09:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY IBU!

So, today is ibu's birthday. Happy Birthday ye, sorry tkde present, saye tk keje. keke. Saye maseh sekolah. haha! Insya'allah kalau dah keje nanti, saye belikan card aje laa. wakakakaka!

im at ibu's crib, doing nothing. haha! im freaking bored, serious. i'll be going to Carousel for dinner with ibu and ida tmr. We'll be celebrating our(ibu & me) birthday there! we'll be eating alot3. & the food there is 100% satisfactory! nice! haha! Thanks to ibu for the treat.

i'll be shopping for raya stuffs too tmr. i havent get my heels yet! haha! im gonna get my hair cut too, but i dont know how should i cut it. short? just trim? or what? ideas please, thank u. this week gonna be the busiest week. tmr, dinner. thursday, bake raya goodies for ibu, she ordered honey cornflakes from kakak. friday, going to geylang with my beloved to shop and get her eyelash done. im not doing mine, grrr! im schooling and it's not possible. saturday, gonna get our (kakak, ibu & me) hair done, break-fast at busu's work place @ Telok Blangah. sunday, no plans yet.

2008-09-22T14:31:00.001+08:00

Also, special thanks to those who wished me. They are : -
-Firdouse
-Kak Ida
-Amie
-Sharlinee

That's all for today. = )

2008-09-21T12:34:00.001+08:00

Thanks to u my dearest.

i hate birthday, i hate love, i hate u. thank u so2 much for the

'special' treatment for today. i guess, this one will be the most

'memorable' one ever. thank u so much eh.

2008-09-21T11:37:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY NUR FADILLAH BTE HARRON!

So yeah, today is my birthday! finally, im 17. haha! After long days of waiting, its finally here! i thank GOD for the strength HE have given me that make me survive and manage throughout the years. thank u so much for making me love this long and i wished to live much longer till i get married and have a family, complete with children. aww. haha!

I guess i aint that special. Not many wished me. but, whatever, i aint popular that everyone have to remember right? haha. So, i will list some who wished me today and also those who wished in advance.

Those who wished in advance are : -
- Lina
- Afiq
- Muss

Those who wished TODAY (by ranking) are : -
- My Lovely Gf, JASEEMA
- The One Who Share The Same Birthdate, Clement Tay
- The Ex Boyfriend, Rusdan
- The Old SchoolMate, Syahmi
- My Beloved Sister, Aisyah
- The One Who Knows It All, Hafidz
- The One Who Share The Same Birthdate, Suhailah
- The Gf with Cute Daughter, Jamilah
- The Aunt Who Is Just Like A Mum, Ibu
- The Dj Classmate, Jojo Nah
- The One Who Share The Same Birthdate, Nenek
- The Two Naughty Ass Kids, Farid & Faris
- The Gentle Gf, Aisha Mok
- The Dude, Dion Tan.
- The Friendly Girl, Nabilah
- The Old Primary SchoolMate, Shafiq

So, that is all. i'll update if there's more.

Hello!

2008-09-18T10:31:00.003+08:00

hello bloggers. im here to blog after 2 wks of not blogging.

So, my birthday is on the 21st and its abt 3 days more to go?

yeah, right. Nothing special througout the days i didnt blog.

Just that i suffer a little. Boyfriend knows that. Im kinda sick

and i aint feeling well. i've been coughing for the past few days

and that irritates my two sisters at night.

They say im distracting their sleep. yeah, sorry uh. i didnt asked

for the cough. I've also been drinking plenty of plain water. Boyfriend

requested that. i swear i dont drink warm plain water. i only dig in

cold ones. serious! the warm one really makes me throw out.

Mum and siblings went to Geylang yesterday to buy, of course raya

outfits kan? This year, my family is a colorful family. Let me tell u why.

Mum, Dad, Elder Bro & Me will be wearing GREY. Shidah and Younger

Bro, Ayat, will be wearing RED/MAROON. My Beloved, Aisyah, and

Youngest Bro, Amid, will be wearing LIGHT BLUE. I was so happy

yesterday to see my whole family under one roof. The laughters we had

together yesterday was so memorable. I love it when my siblings try

on their raya outfits. Kakak look pretty as always. Ayat, my god! He looks

so big now. i used to be taller than him. haha! he's like a father already.

I finally gain the attention i need from my mum. how i feel so loved.

I also finally feel part of the family. That is all i need. But, despite the

happiness that i gained, im worried abt first day of raya. That's for me

to know & u guys to find out. haiz.

Besides family, i have someone, i loved too. he is the love of my life, now

& forever. Hunney, i thanked u so much for being there for me whenever

i need u(eventhough sometimes u're not there). u make me feel loved

whenever im with you. i love being in ur arms; the feeling is spectacular.

I know i cant celebrate raya with u, but, i'll be waiting, i promise.Boyfriend,

i love u and i swear my love for u is true. Thank you, so2 much for tolerating

with my unbearable behaviour. muah!

Hello Sunday!

2008-09-07T15:18:00.001+08:00

hello readers! let me start with saturday's day okay? yesterday was awesome! haha! went out with boyfriend and his friends including sheeq and some others. actually, the plan for me and boyfriend was to go geylang and break-fast together there but we ended up at Suntec Dance 2008 and break-fast with his friends.

meet up with boyfriend and the others at j.e and then we head to City Hall. i had McSpicy meal and BK's mexican drumlets for break-fast and the others ate Burger King. The reason only me, ate McD is because the burgers at BK is too big to fit into my mouth. haha! serious, everytime i ate BK with boyfriend, i didnt eat the burgers but the 4pcs mexican drumlets instead.

we sat in circle in the middle of the Fountain Of Wealth as the dance comp was held there. the day was okay till it rains and everyone without umbrella rushed to the nearest shelter they could find. when it rains, i feel loved by boyfriend. wanna know why? he's so sweet when he took off his shirt and asked me to put it on me. i was freezing, i was just wearing white sleeveless and jeans? aww. that is seriously so2 sweet.

i was so happy that i get to spent time with beloved boyfriend. haha! was suppose to reach home at 10pm but i, as usual reach late. i reach at 12+am, nearly. i was too caught up with boyfriend and his friends i guess. they're nice people to be with, not forgetting they are the full-time joker. big thank u to boyfriend and faque for sending me till my doorstep. haha, i insisted that.

Besides the awesome-ness, the not-so-awesome thing is that, i fell in the train! eeuuww! malunye. thanks to everyone around me for not helping me. i was about to fall when im at City Hall MRT Station, but thanks to boyfriend, he get hold of me. but i didnt expect to fall in the train?! damn! haha! but whatever, its nothing. only that my hips hurts a litttle.

The left side of my eye hurts too. & that is because boyfriend and me bang into each others head. ouch! whenever i touch my left eye area, it hurts. its okay, that is cute, bang into each other? yeah, right. Yesterday was also different than any other day i went out with boyfriend. that is because, i finally get to snap some pics with boyfriend! wee! haha! okay, lame. but, sorry, i aint posting it here i guess. i hv no time.

Next up, tmr school reopens and prelims starts! urgh. whatever, just chill. pass or fail, who cares. i give up. there's too much to think about right now. studies aside, thank u.

So, to conclude, i only have one thing to add. BOYFRIEND, U ROCK MY WORLD!

NEW ADDICT.

2008-09-05T15:19:00.000+08:00

Im bored, so, i decided to blog again. haha! whatever it is, the main motive is to blog about, my new addict? haha! okay, here it goes. i used to like green. but however, after changing my blogskin, i've learn to love PURPLE too now. so, previously, i like red too. In conclusion, i love 3 colurs now. GREEN, PURPLE & RED. YELLOW is the next aim. haha! So, that is all laa. haha!

5th day of fasting month.

2008-09-05T12:33:00.002+08:00

yeay! today is the 5th day of fasting month and im still holding on. haha! despite all the temptations, i managed to continue to fast. keke. see how good i am? but my mouth simply cant stop saying all the vulgarities. i also cant stop gossiping. do u know who is my gossip partner? its ibu. keke!

its been 2 days i didnt ate rice for break-fast. last two days, i break-fast at mcd with ibu and farid. i had McSpicy Meal with Hot Tea. yeah, hot tea? u cant expect me to drink cold drinks right? its not good for digestion after a day without eating anything? yesterday, i ate quite alot. i ate 'Roti Boyan', 'Ayam Percik', 'Vadeh/Vadai' & some malay kueh which i bought at the bazaar at Causeway Point. the food there looks much better than the bazaar at Jurong, i bet. i hope the food taste as nice as it looks. there's 'Putu Piring' too. *evil grin* keke.

mum, dad & siblings came over to ibu's place yesterday. they stay for quite sometime. younger bro ordered Nike Air Dunk. So, kecoh siket smalam abt his size. haha! i miss my family alot. its been 5 days of the fasting month and i hv not break-fast with my own family. im at ibu's place, helping nenek. too bad. but i'll go back to my place this weekend. school re-opens and i must be at home, of course.

Damn it! My tagboard is so stupid! urgh! if u cant see the tag option, please keep refreshing. thanks.

& yes, that is all! haha! thanks for reading!

2008-09-04T12:48:00.003+08:00

Okay, whatever it is. i had my blogskin changed.
& im very tired. i'll blog later; maybe. the tagboard
might be abit off-colour. i'll edit the colours when im
not lazy.

tired.

2008-09-02T14:29:00.002+08:00

haiz. it's 2nd day of the fasting month. & im
very hungry. haha! im tired. i just finish doing
ibu's office work; keying booking. its fun but
my body is aching as i've been sitting for the
past hours.

actually im lazy to blog. nenek is cooking & the
smell is really tempting but, im fasting. the only
day i wont fast is the day my menses come. haha!
thats a privilledge for girls. great!

im counting down my birthday & hari raye; of
course. im so fuck up because the tailor dont
wanna sew my outfit. she claims that it's tough,
the material is too soft & silky and the design is
complicated. if she had told me earlier, i cn ask
some other tailor to sew, but she told me last 2
days and of course no tailor gonna agree to sew.
urgh! what bad luck is this? damn!

okay, i've got nothing more to add but lastly,
i cant deny, i miss boyfriend. love u hunney.

to whoever it may concern.

2008-09-01T16:27:00.001+08:00

okay, like yeah, i decided to post again.
its already 4+ & there's no news of anything
from boyfriend. its been 4 days since we last
meet. hunney, u know how it feels like being
apart from each other. im waiting patiently for
ur calls/msgs. i miss u so much. i wanna hug u,
i wanna have u here with me. whenever i think
about the time we're together, i feel like crying.
but, i cant, im fasting. whenever i think about
whats gonna happen in few days time, being
alone by myself everyday, i dont think i can.

life is meaningless without u. i miss having u
beside me. i miss being in ur arms. i miss ur
kisses. i miss being teased by you. i miss joking
with u. i miss gossiping with u. i miss cleaning
up with u. i miss being at ur place with ur family.
i miss disturbing u when u're asleep. i miss kissing
u. i miss watching dvd's with u. i miss u lying at my
lap. finally, i miss being love by u. i simply miss
every single thing about u.

Haiqal, if u happens to read my blog, this is for u.
i dont know why u're giving me the cold treatment
lately, but, whatever it is, im sorry if whatever i've
said have offended u in any ways. i didnt mean to
talk bad about anything or anyone but i feel that i
just wanna let everything out. im mad that im being
fooled by people. i dont like that. im very sorry, so
sorry. i just want u to know, i regard u as a part of
my life; as my very own family. i always hope for the
best for u. im proud of u. eventhough we're not that
close, u & ur family matters alot to me. im so sorry.

& lastly, boyfriend, i love u. im really sorry too. it
may be ur fault but i guess i too, have to apologise.
i need u like the ocean needs the tide. u're the love
of my life.

hello!

2008-09-01T11:48:00.001+08:00

FIRSTLY, TO ALL MUSLIMS, SELAMAT BERPUASE.
SILA COUNTDOWN OKAY. HAHA!

SECONDLY, BOYFRIEND, IM SORRY FOR BEING
HARSH. I KNOW IM RUDE. IM SO SORRY. MY BAD.
PSST. I LOVE U.

THIRDLY, EARLY MORNING, IM CRAZILY CHATTING
WITH MY FRIEND, FYQ! HAHA! HE'S BORED, IM BORED.
SO, LET THE PICTURES DO THE TALKING OKAY. HAHA!

MINE HANDWRITING IS IN RED.

THIS ONE, MINE IS IN BLUE.

hunney, i love u.

2008-08-31T11:11:00.000+08:00

i officially declare, im SINGLE & NOT TAKEN.

"u know how much i love u & how it hurts when
u lied to me. u even asked ur sis and friends to
lie too? what are u trying to do? u said u did that
because u dont want me to feel neglected and dont
want me to worry? hafidz, look, im ur girlfriend &
i know u very well. my instinct was right, something
was amiss. u went out with ur friends instead of
meeting me, ur precious? i dont mind u going out with
ur friends, but at least, tell me. u dont have to lie to me.
it is now clear that im not as important as ur friends.
clearly seen okay. i was at home the whole day, waiting,
and u were out there enjoying urself happily? didnt think
of the outcomes that u lied to me? haiz. u're a joker. that
is why i keep on saying u're weird. u also dont have to
dig my past and compare. i know i suck alot. i gave u 3
chances and it is more than enough. i thought u were
different, i thought i could rely on u, but i was wrong.
guys are guys. u guys are all the same. just cant commit.
HAFIDZ, IM SORRY. I ADMIT I LOVE U, BUT THIS
RELATIONSHIP CANT WORK, WITHOUT TRUST.
I CANT TRUST U NOMORE NOR I CAN FORCE
MYSELF TO DO SO. IM SORRY, BUT IM LEAVING.
WE'RE OVER. THANKS ALOT FOR THE LOVE U
SHOWERED ME ALL THIS WHILE AND FOR THE
ATTENTION I GOT FROM UR FAMILY."

LOVE,
NUR FADILLAH BTE HARRON.

hafidz!

2008-08-30T17:35:00.001+08:00

BOYFRIEND,
LET ME TELL U THIS,
YOU'RE SO2,
WEIRD, VERY WEIRD!!

saturday boredom.

2008-08-30T17:21:00.000+08:00

hello people. im here again, to blog.
im so bored at ibu's crib, doing nothing,
but, rot. haiz! it's saturday & im at home
helping ibu doing her work, keying bookings.

i didnt meet hunney yesterday, today &
maybe, tomorrow. haiz! i missed him so2
much. boyfriend, u're loved, by me. & i hope,
only me, nobody else.

however, boyfriend is abit weird somehow.
hmm. but, nevermind. i wonder. i guess i'll
end here. i've got nothing to blog about.
till here. love, didie.

2008-08-29T10:32:00.001+08:00

hello! firstly, i dont hv a tittle for this post.
okay, this week, the last week of term 3 for
school, i'm absent, 3 days in a row. from
Wednesday to Friday. Monday and Tuesday
was having prelim paper, no excuses but i
have to turn up. 2 days more and taadaa,
fasting month is here. just cant wait for raye.

i love the 15th day of fasting month, when my
family starts to countdown. haha! also, not
forgetting the hari raya song from the radio
stations. that makes me even eager for raya.
however, too bad my sister and i cant bake
this year as our oven is down. urgh! so, we'll
have to order & that will cost alot.

Despite all the eager-ness, im sad too. i'm sure
boyfriend will not be there to fast with me,
celebrate my birthday & countdown for raya
with me. he wont be able to go the bazzaar @
geylang with me. its okay, i hope i can go through
this.

"sayang, sayang.. knape laa tk fikir dulu seblom
uat? tk kesiankn i ke? ape laa agaknye kat dalam
kepala u biler u uat mcm nie?"

enough said but, i love him no matter what. haha!
boyfriend says, he's not good looking, not cute,
but why i love him? let me answer okay.

Firstly, bf is good at heart.
Secondly, bf just have this special way of expressing
his love.
Thirdly, eventhough he claimed that he's not good-
looking, i wonder why some girls like him? hmm.
Fourthly, he also said that he's not cute, but to me,
he is. He just look so cute when he smiled at me.
*smiling*
Finally, im his gf & i know what kind of guy he is.
(i hope so.)

Bak kata pepatah melayu, baik ataupun buruk,
dia tetap boyfriend saye jugak.

i love my boo.

2008-08-27T11:35:00.000+08:00

Firstly, Happy 17th Birthday JOJO NAH QIAN HUI!
Secondly, in case i didnt blog tomorrow,
i wish her first okay. So, here it goes,
Happy Advance 15th Birthday NOORDINIY!

Did not attend school today, kinda lazy & the weather
is so2 nice to sleep. But, however, i did not sleep.
Went to mcd and had breakfast, alone. Then head
home, watch tv. i then got bored lazing at home.
Thought of going to Creative Centre to get hunney's
mp4 fixed but, im too lazy. When i think abt the distance
i hv to walk from J.E MRT to Creative, i think twice.
haha! Sorry hunney, nxt time okay.

So, here i am, at ibu's crib, updating & downloading
stuffs. im bored, seriously, i am. there's some things
that i hv to get it done by today. its a must. teacher's
day celebration is on Friday and i dont feel like going
to school again. but after thinking abt the concerts,
i think i'll go. i think so uh. 50/50. hmm.

& yeah, whatever it is, i miss boyfriend. muah! most of
his stuffs is with me. haha! that's because he's afraid
his siblings or friends will use/wear it. i hv his shirt too.
aww. haha! i washed it already eh. i just love being in
boyfriends' arm, the feeling of being loved by boyfriend
is awesomely great. hell yeah! serious!

i guess im gonna go to milah's crib later. farhan wanna
visit lil cutie, maisara. yup2, she's back at Jurong. that
is all i hv for today.

& oh, lastly, shidah u're a pain in the ass. urgh! F***
off!

2008-08-24T18:12:00.000+08:00

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you &
I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Boy you could have stayed but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me? But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of timeIf it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Verse 2]

It's been a long time since you called me(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Boy I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

[Bridge]
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint trueI
really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Bridge]

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for youIf it's the last thing i do

[Chorus]

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for youIf you think
I'm fine it just aint trueI really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you
I'll Be Waiting.

(i edit abit)

i miss..

2008-08-24T18:05:00.000+08:00

hello dear readers.
im gonna sum up everything. i've got no mood
to blog. so, fyi, i wont be blogging for some time;
maybe. only my closest friend know what hell im
going through. girls, u gotta keep me company to
help me go through this. i cant do this alone. im
not strong enough.

yesterday was the most memorable day ever. went
out with boyfriend and his crew plus Shabirah and
Huda. so, had fun with shab and huda. now i know
they're great people. shot some pics with them.
girls, till nxt time okay. haha!

boyfriend, dont blame yourself, u're not the reason
why im like this. im okay. u're a pleasant one and
i know whatever u do has a reason behind it. i
understand how u feel and im not angry. i just wanna
have u in my arms. i wanna hug u throughout. im
gonna wait patiently. i hope u cn celebrate my birthday
with me and hari raya with me. boy, im in love with u.
u're the reason why im smiling.

kepada semua umat islam, sila makan puas2 ye. haha!

god, help me go through this, please.

pictures.

2008-08-17T12:58:00.000+08:00

step cute.

this is disgusting. haha!

i was swallowing hot fried wanton.

Danity Kane Singapore Edition.

i was talking to hunney & aisha snap this.

at train station, otw back.

makan time. thanks kak shae.

love them to bits.

i love my girls.

2008-08-17T12:42:00.000+08:00

hello! okay, yesterday was another outing with
my girls. it was a last minute plan. it was 12noon
when kak shae msg me & the rest. i was in the toilet,
wanted to bathe of course. i have nothing on so, i
agreed to tag along. thought og meeting bf but he
was asleep and my girls are meeting at 2pm, which
is 2 hours from 12noon. i was in the toilet for abt,
30-40 mins. that is normal. i wanted to wear all red,
i wore red/white sleeveless, red clip, red/black bag,
red earrings. im only short of red watch and bangles.

yesterday was fun, laugh out loud at Sakura's. Thanks
alot kak shae for the treat. I owe u one okay. haha!
Met kak nana at far east and continue to window shop,
fro far east to cineleisure. i saw something which attracts
my eyes and attention! & the thing is a shoe!!

first was a pointed canvas shoe. second was NIKE NEW
BALANCE LADIES SHOE! Third was also a NIKE SHOE,
PURPLE IN COLOUR!!

okay, shot alot of pics but & i'll upload in the next post.
my BIRTHday is coming soon, birthday wish list will be up!

ouch, please go.

2008-08-12T13:57:00.000+08:00

ouch. it hurts so badly. please. i need alot of rest.
my tummy hurts. menses cramp is so irritating.
pain, please go. skip school today, with bro. went
over to milah's house to visit baby; again. haha!

i said, again because i was at her place too yesterday.
had alot of fun with milah yesterday. snap alot of
pics. haha! but sorry, lazy to upload it. please visit
milah's blog to view thse pics okay.

i think im gonna skip school again tomorrow. my
tummy really is killing me. urgh! result for GCE O
Level MT Exam is out. my result is disappointing.
very disappointing. but heck, i cn retake. its okay.

i've been very hardworking lately. i've been revising.
only for ss and maths. haha! i dont bother about the
rest first. i'll make time to revise for them later.

finally, i miss boyfriend. alot. met him only for awhile
yesterday.

so, that is all.

2008-08-11T14:43:00.000+08:00

firstly, i think my blog looks kinda dead. i seriously
dont hv the little2 time to get a new skin or create
one. im very busy; maybe.

secondly, the song, i wanna dedicate that song to
my one and only beloved boyfriend. i dont know
what's wrong with me. i wonder how long i can hold
on to this relationship. i cant control my temper
and i get angry over little2 things.

i feel like no one understands me, not even him.
i dont know how to express it but whenever im
by myself, i think, i should not rush into having a
relationship. i still hv a long way to go. i'll meet new
people as i grow. Not only me, u'll meet new people
too, everyone will.

if we're really meant for each other, we'll meet again
sometime later. but for now, i guess it's just a feeling
which we feel towards each other; called love? okay,
drop the topic. dont bother, i dont wanna stress
myself.

no school today. will be meeting milah later. going to
IMM. im free, so, i accompanied her. i'll bring ibu's
elder son along. pity him. he's bored at home. so, bring
him out. I'll also be going back to my place today.
& tomorrow is just another normal school day. long
hours of studying.

Dear girlfriends, i need advice from u girls. i cant
think of what i should do. please do suggest some
ideas okay. i miss u girls.

& to u, i miss u alot. i guess only i, know that. i love u.
please go back to camp whenever u have to. tkcr too.
eat well, sleep well & rest well. love u.

happy belated 43rd birthday singapore.

2008-08-10T09:33:00.000+08:00

Gd morning people! So, yeah, im infront of the
laptop, blom mandi, blom cuci muke. haha! busuk.
okay wait, im excited to say this, i really do,
HAPPY BELATED 43RD BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!
dah besar dah die eh. keke. im excited but its belated.
i dont hv time to blog yesterday, was busy keying
ibu's booking. her work from office which she brought
home on Friday. So, i help because its fun doing work
but i wonder what if it is my own work. hmm. will
it be as fun as doing others' work? From the analysis
i've made, i guess, NO! haha.

Went out with boyfriend yesterday. After all the
mengamok2, i still go out with boyfriend. i love him
uh. keke. i dont wanna miss the chance to meet him
yesterday as the last time i met him was last Tuesday?
im trying to say, i miss him laa, even now, im already
missing ~~hugging~~ him. For the first time, i went out
with boyfriends' friends. they're great to be with. they're
so funny. Despite that, i dont laugh much. i was very tired,
my legs are aching & im headache, with many2 people
all over! Whatever it is, i enjoyed myself despite the
crowd all over and i feel loved whenever im with bf.
i love u so much! muah!

i'll be going to yishun today. there's a kenduri there.
will be meeting with some arrogant people, but heck,
i dont care. if they wanna brag, i can brag too laa, even
worst. haha! try me.

Milah, cn i follow u go take baby tmr at yishun? cn i?
i miss carrying baby. she's so cute! Just like her mummy.
aww~ haha!

Okay, lastly, i've finally figured out who is anonymous,
that person is MY ONE & ONLY, BELOVED,
BOYFRIEND. haha! actually, i know it was u, but, i
just wanna double confirm it before i get the wrong
person.

So, i'll end here. i wanna bathe & get ready before someone
start nagging. haha!

2008-08-06T16:05:00.000+08:00

I got no tittle for this one. haha. its a random post.
hello people. i have no time to update yesterday.
Skip school yesterday. Had to help ibu's elder son,
Farid with his Digital Based Online Assignment
since there's no adult to supervise him, i hv to be
one. Normally, those who skip school wants to wake
up late and take ur own sweet time. But me, instead
of waking up late, i woke up at 7am to help Farid get
the laptop ready and stufs. To my surprise, ibu,
didnt work too. She say, she's bored and get pissed
with colleagues at work.

Surf the net till 12noon and slack for a while. Had
my shower at 1+pm and met boyfriend at polyclinic.
Head to his place soon after and guess what, im
scared. Boyfriend got angry with his bro because
of house key. He punch the wall and his gate to
vent his angry. Sincerely, i say, that is the most
stupid thing to do to vent your anger because u
hurt yourself by doing that. Isn't that stupid?

& the most irritating thing is, boyfriend nag at me.
he's just like my mum, my dad, in overall, he's just
like the old people laa. haha! hate it u know. urgh!
regret meeting u yesterday u know? ishk! didnt
expect that to happen u know? the fight lasted for
quite sometime. i keep quiet all the way, not wanting
to answer anything.

i reached at 10pm. had my shower and had my late
dinner or is it considered as supper? i didnt eat the
whole day. yeah, i mean, i eat, but not a meal. just
20pcs of cocktails. I went to bed straight after eating.
& woke up at 6am today.

Okay, now its about today. went to school as per
normal. The not normal thing is that i must wake up
early, leave early as im from CCK. So, my family's
Toyota Sienta will be out today night! Wee! Now my
family is complete. I love my family alot.

Phew! This year Hari Raya, we dont hv to hop on the
public transport to travel; only if i go out with my
friends. My sisters and I cn wear higher heels because
first sister always complaint, saying she dont wanna
wear too high, high-heels as we hv to walk alot and our
feet hurts. Not anymore now. haha!

Im going back to my place tonight. Wont be able to blog
often, internet connection at home sucks and the laptop
is doom, again. My family is leaving to JB on Friday till
Monday. I ain't going. Im gonna stay to celebrate
Singapore's Birthday! Im proud to be a Singaporean.
Love, Singapore. haha!

Lastly, dear anonymous, please name urself. thank u.

I guess, that is all i have for today and the previous day.

saya cinta awak.

2008-08-04T19:37:00.000+08:00

this is specially for my boyfriend, Hafidz.

"Sayang, maafkn i kalau selame nie i ade tipu
atau simpan bende daripade u. i tknk u marah2.
On this very day, i decided to spit out the truth
because im guilty of lying to u and i dont want u
to know the truth from others' mouth. At first,
i seriously dont hv the guts to tell u but im too
stress thinking abt it, so, i text u. yet still, now,
i dont hv the guts to face u. im so sorry hunney.
Nanti hari raye saye mintak maaf. Also, thanks
alot for understanding and be patience towards
me. i know i banyak menyusahkn u and stresskan
u. told u, i suck. im so happy that im blessed with
a wonderful boyfriend; which is lovable. I've learn
alot from u. Hunney, i promise u that i wont repeat
the same mistake again and i'll make full use of the
LAST chance to be faithful towards u. Words can't
say what LOVE can do. I love hafidz, sincerely i
swear."

So, thats about it.

2008-08-03T13:01:00.000+08:00

hello people. i wake up early morning today;
on a Sunday? yeah, i did. i woke up at 7am.
had breakfast, which was Famous Amos Double
Chocolate Chips cookies. hmm. yummy! had my
bath and get ready to go to Adek's Sports Meet.

As usual, ibu and i are never early. haha! we
reach at 8.45am instead of 8.30am. by then,
there's no seat left for us. damn! so, whatever,
ibu and i stand. Adek was in the Green Team.

For the 'Pair me up' game, they won first.
As for the 'My hand Print', the came in 3rd.
Not bad for nursery kids. haha! Adek participate
in only two events, mentioned above. After his
event, ibu and i go look for seat. we sat under the
tree, also, under the hot scorching sun!

i feel like im dehydrating. seriously. i feel so weak.
i then cant wait for the event to end. & hell yeah,
finally, it ends. Adek collect his prize and zoom,
we went home. i watched We Are R.E.M and then
here i am, updating. No plans for today. Boyfriend
is asleep. he got back at 7am. Gonna text him later.
Slack till afternoon and head back home to do my
Sunday ironing of uniforms routine. haha!

2008-08-02T19:22:00.001+08:00

okay. its like im updating only once a week?
yeah, whatever. hmm. firstly, there's something
i wanna say to boyfriend.

"boyfriend, im so sorry of what happened.
didnt mean to hurt u. i hope our relationship
last. i realise how much i mean to u; how precious
i am to u. i love u, so2 much, too much. i
think i just dont know how to appreciate u.
im so sorry. anyway, i love u & ur family too."

last few days was nothing. all i did was spending
most of my time with dearest boyfriend. he's the
only one i need. he's my everything. younger bro,
hidayat keep on bugging me to get him a headphone.
damn, he's very irritating. yes, very.

second sister went to Thailand;Bangkok. She's coming
back today night. let see what she get for me. haha!
i hope not stuff which i can get in Singapore. haha!
i didnt say this to her, but i really miss her. keke.
cute kan saye? i hope she's fine.

O levels is coming and im not prepared, seriously.
im trying my best to cope with every subject, except
for GEOGRAPHY! Mdm Ow Chin Fong, u really got
me on my nerves. go to hell u ass! MT O level result
will be out next week. A1, A2 please. dont want B3 laa.
National Day is next week & im leaving to Johor Bahru
on Friday. haha!

My family will be complete with the arrival of our
Toyota Sienta. It is RED in colour, Singapore nmpk.
haha! i hope everything goes well.

Lastly, Haiqal, whoever who took ur stuffs, i hope
they suffer. they suck big time.

I guesss, that is all i have.

untittled.

2008-07-27T09:10:00.000+08:00

okay, boyfriend! i've read my past post.
im sorry? & seriously now, im afraid to text/
call u. like hell, serious! i think u need explanation
right? but, i simply don't know how to. So, i don't
know laa. IM SO3 SORRY.

people, im aware i didnt update for quite sometime
which also i need to tell u the reason why.
the last post i update was, "Boyfriend's Back".
So, u know how much i miss bf right. i meet him almost
everyday since he came back. haha! i spend 1/2
of my day everyday with bf. i even skip school
last week, to be with him. haha! what an ass i am.

overall, i've been with bf all along & i love3 him alot.
how much is alot? i don't know. haha!

Also, i cant update is because my internet at home
really sucks. actually, not the internet, its the laptop.
it's FULL of virus! & my kakak aisyah, she slammed
the laptop when she's mad of the slow connection due
to the virus. for now, ibu's laptop will be mine, for updates!

my sis, Shidah will be leaving to Bangkok in 4 days
time. i wont say this to her but i'll pray for her safety.
i hope she go and come back fine. she must get me
alot3 of stuffs from there too! haha!

this is fcuking important! my prelims is coming!
god! im not prepared yet. not even for my O's.
argh!! anybody, care to help? haha! okay whatever.
im seriously not ready. that's all.

im loving it!

2008-07-16T13:08:00.000+08:00

LET'S MAKE THIS SHORT AND SIMPLE.

BOYFRIEND IS BACK!

I LOVE!!

gosh!

2008-07-15T12:48:00.000+08:00

haha! today i went to school for only two periods
and i went home. thanks to menses which caused
me to go home. i stained my skirt. paiseh uh. will
be heading back to school later in the afternoon
for O level MT Listening Compre. i must report
at 1630. told ya something, at that time, im very2
sleepy. hope i can pay attention. keke.

im having cramps; menstrual cramps. oh2, im so
not in the mood. bumped into isnaidi earlier. talk
with him about bf and some other and we go seperate
ways. he remind me take good care of boyfriend.
i say, yeah, i will. boyfriend should be out soon, a
day or two. i missed him so much. i love him so.

text boyfriend yesterday, eventhough i know he
cant read and reply so soon but eventually, he will
when he's out. text him today too. im faithful to boyfriend.
love him and his awesome family.

i miss muimui too. long time never see her and her mum;
my bitch. haha! bluek! see u soon; maybe. haha!

missed.

2008-07-13T09:07:00.000+08:00

okay. im here to update. early morning,
blom mandi; busuk. haha! i've help ibu
with house chores today. wake up at 6.45am.
the wake-up-early-morning plan is actually
to send farid(ibu's son) to CCK Stadium for
his weekly soccer training. but plan goes wrong
cause ayah wake up too, to send farid. so we didnt
send farid.

yesterday was fun. tag ibu's family to Jurong
West Stadium for farid's soccer clinic. im so excited!
there's Singapore National Player, Gombak United
Player. woohoo! Farid & Faris snap some photos
with them. there's free refreshment for parents
& siblings but as per usual, the food is always not
enough. a few kiasu singaporeans pack the food.
damn them! but whatever, i ate my share already.
there's a lady who make balloons into poodle, flower,
sword and etc. for kids. ibu and i queued to get the
balloons for adek, abang & ourselves. haha!
adek & abang's was sword. ibu's was a poodle.
mine was a green flower.

okayy, whatever it is. i'll say this. i miss boyfriend
alot3. im waiting patiently, wasting my time on
stupid2 things. boyfriend, come home soon.

skip school lagi.

2008-07-10T18:41:00.000+08:00

as said above, fadillah didnt go school today, again.
haha! thanks to beloved gf who text me yesterday
night informing me she's not going to school today.
so, i dont want to go to as i'll be alone, no one to
gossip with and if i come to school today, i hv to
go for the ngee ann poly for the poly experience
shit and i got no one to stick to when im there since
gf is not there.

i woke up at 6.30am, as usual. actually wanted to
wake up later but i heard younger bro and dad
screaming, so, i wake up. i dont know what's the
fuss about, i dont wish to know or get involve. i
was on the laptop from 8am, when everyone left
for work, leaving me and kak ida at home till 12.30pm,
when i got sleepy. when off at 2.15pm, had to go to
skin centre with kak ida, to collect her prescriptions.
take cab there, phew, lucky! i dont feel like taking
train as im already half dead; sleepy! taxi driver
talk with kak ida all the way until we reach our
destination. i ignored him as im sleepy, of course.

head to novena square soon after collecting the
prescriptions. bought a waffle with butter maple
spread @ buttercup's. it is so nice! haha! i love the
shop name too that was buttercup? haha! when
to cotton on to shop for some tops. was rushing cause
ida dont want to be late for work. ate at bk and off to
taxi stand. it was already 4.15pm and ida hv to reach
her workplace before 5pm. damn! there was no taxi
at that area. so, no other choice but to call for taxi.

reach The Chevrons at 4.45pm. she's not late right?
send ida off to the bowling centre and i head home
straight. im tired but i snap some pics before i get
changed.

somebody, get me PASSION FRUIT MILK TEA
WITH PEARL please? im craving for it.

on the other hand, i miss boyfriend, alot.

boyfriend.

2008-07-09T16:42:00.000+08:00

hello people. hmm. i feel so lonely.
boyfriend is not around.
its for me to know and u guys surely
dont need to find out. i just missed him so.
everytime i read past msges from boyfriend,
i weep silently.

not only i miss boyfriend, i miss his
family too. especially his younger sister.
that is because boyfriend and me love
teasing her. i miss chilling at his crib,
watching vcds and stuffs. i miss being
teased and tickled by boyfriend. haiz.

i try to keep myself occupied so i wont
think abt boyfriend too much. im waiting
to see boyfriend again. i need boyfriend.
im crying now. this is rather stupid.

On tuesday, 1102 hours, was the last i heard
boyfriend's voice. i promised boyfriend i'll wait
for him and be good while he's not arnd.
all i do now is wait and pray that boyfriend is fine.

this is what i normally say to him.
"hunney, take care. eat well, sleep well,
rest well. i love and miss u alot3. muah."

i just miss HAFIDZ BIN HADNAN effing much.

Be Yourself Day.

2008-07-04T17:51:00.002+08:00

so yeah, last friday was 'Be Yourself Day' and every
student can dress as themselves just by
paying $2. Yuan Ching Sec School, which is
my school participated. There's a guy from
The NewPaper(TNP) come by.
My younger bro looks like a office boy.
seriously he's good looking.
(tgk laa adek sape)

i wore sleeveless and cardigan(as i must not
wear anything revealing) with black boot-cut jeans.
i was late so, i grab and go. haha! i saw alot3
of different people with different type of dressings.
damn! some look as if they're going to town?
hello? its be yourself day and its a normal school
day. so, dress appropriately laa. some even wrap
shawls arnd their neck. i was wondering,
is singapore having winter now? like hell,
the weather was effing humid giler babi!

head to JP with milah, met jasee and shalu there.
went back to milah's place cause the other to
wants to visit muimui. haha! awhile later,
head back to JP as milah and me wanted to get
our nails done for our girls day out the following day.
we went to beauty bar and get our nails done.
mine was orange-red, milah's was maroon.
overall, its nice. met hunney at his crib after that.
stayed till 8+ and i went back.
went off early as i dont want mum to hv the
impression that i went out everyday.

On Saturday was my girls day out. hell yeah,
it was awesome! met the bitches and they're
all awesomely gorgeous. haha! went to Lime Flea
Market and we shop for some stuffs. head to Marina
Mc Cafe with kak efa, kak liza, milah and daughter and
kak shae. the rest went off early. saw ex bf there who was
rusdan? snap some pics with him. haha! long time no see
eh? his hair grow longer and longer by days. haha!

went back at around 9+pm as we're with baby, we dont
wanna stay out too late. send milah back home, as
promised. reach home at around 10+, nearly 11pm.
washed up and sleep.

Sunday, met hunney, was with him till 10pm.
i have fun with him and i sincerely love him.
muah! haha! take cab back to ibu's place as there's
no school tmr, wanna try out her new acer notebook.
but, its already late when i reach.

so today! here i am updating with ibu's ACER NOTEBOOK.!
woohoo! cool shit siak! im loving it. cn i get SONY VAIO,
red please? haha! im going off already, need to iron my
siblings uniform, ready for school tmr. i love bf,
i miss him. muah!

skip school day.

2008-07-03T09:00:00.000+08:00

okayy. i didnt attend school today.
that's why im here early morning, updating.
there's nothing interesting in school nomore.
school is no longer the place im looking forward
to go to each day and smile and joke. not anymore.
im at home now with younger bro, ayat and elder sis,
shidah. they're both asleep. younger bro didnt attend
school too but actually he's already ready to go off
but when he sees me lying on bed still, he knock
on my door and this is what he say.

younger bro:
dillah, aku macam malas nak gi skola uh.
me:
malas? gi tukar baju, tdo sudah. tkyah pegi.

so that's what i said to him. im such a good sis am i?
haha! okayy, crap. i've been sleeping in tears the
last few days. im going through alot right now.
real much. i just dont know.

science centre last saturday was awesome. & that
was also the last day i contacted someone. im moving
on, i hope so. met hunney on sunday and he seems
so blur and weird. i dont know what's wrong with
him and im kinda worried. slack with hunney and
his friends for awhile and went home as beloved sis
text me saying she've reached home. i walked home
and when im in the lift, i realised hunney's watch is with
me. will return the next time we meet.

guess what? when i reach infront at my doorstep,
im shock to see all the lights in my crib is ON?
i laugh my ass off cause beloved sis is scared as she's
alone. haiyoo kakak. scared eh? haha! im scared when
im alone too, but i wont on ALL the lights? haha!
tomorrow is be yourself day and i seriously dont have
any idea what to wear. hmm. im gonna go look through
my wardrobe later.

& oh, met milah yesterday. she accompanied me to JE.
we went to Sony Ericsson Centre ler. beloved sis hp
is spoilt? so, i help her send her phone for servicing.
see how gd i am? muimui didnt tag along as the day was
humid and milah let her rest at home with her granny.
went to JP too. was talking to milah abt what to wear
this saturday's outing with the bitches when we saw
kak shae with zul. we talk in the middle of nowhere
and start laughing. baru milah, dillah ngan kak shae je
dah kecoh. blom dgn kak liza, kak nana and aisha. haha!

cant wait to meet my girls! haha! there's a dress code for
that day. everyone must wear dress. haha! cute eh?
i cant wait! ate at siam kitchen with ibu & beloved sis.
we ate the buffet which consist of 23 dishes. damn!
we cant finish! haha! so, we went back soon after.
ayah fetch ibu and we separate.

reach home and sleep.

Summary.

2008-06-28T12:47:00.001+08:00

hello all. im gonna summarise what happened this wk
okay. i cant update everyday 'cause im currently busy
with school. i rch home at 6pm everyday & everytime
i reached, im deadbeat. i seriously dont hv the time.
understand understood okay? muah. haha!

MONDAY:
first day was great. i get to meet my BFF. i miss
them effing much. haha! went to ASPIRE. & go back.
was shock when i got the new timetable. its like,
everyday lesson such as maths, poa, is 3 periods on
most of the days. hmm. but, im loving maths now?
yeah, truly. i end this day, crying.

Tuesday:
same normal things happened. & again, i end this
day crying.

Wednesday:
this day is the longest day. school was normal.
when to settle stuffs with fir, ibu and boyfriend
tag along. god! i love boyfriend. left my handphone
with bf without noticing it and i dont hv a phone
throughout the day till thursday evening.
it feel sucky2, suck2. serious.

Thursday:
nothing much, i when to school but i went bck home
at 8.45am? haha! rajiv said i came just to sing the national
anthem as i stayed in school for only a period and i when off.
haha! i was worried that bf didnt answer my calls,
so, i went back. Met milah and mui mui then head to
ibu's place to accompany nenek 'cause she's sick.
mui2's pram is so2 big and we had a hard time taking
it up and down the bus. thats gonna be the last2 time
milah & me gonna ride a bus with that pram. when to
jp at 6+pm and met bf there. finally, i got my hands on
my phone! send milah home and slack with bf under my
block till 8pm and i went back & sleep.

Friday:
i went to school. went back after school. get dressed
and went to meet fir before i go and meet bf.
i supposed, that was the last time i'll see fir. that is
what he said to me. head to bf's place after that
& told ya, his house was in a mess. his bro was there too.
went out with bf and back to his place, again.
his sister is so2 cute, same for his mum. haha!
reached home at 9+ yesterday night and again,
i sleep soon after i take my shower.

Finally, today, i going to science centre with ibu
and her two kids. i dont know for what but she said
something about dinosaur or whatever. So, i've done
my laundry, help mum fold the clothings and clean the
kitchen before i go anywhere so, she wont nag. haha!

So, that's about all. Love u people! muah!

Pictures.

2008-06-22T15:41:00.002+08:00

pic taken at my crib. haha! oh2. i knw im dark.
okay. idk why i cant update the others so,
i dont wanna wait long2. so. u see yhis cute princess?
i love2 her. wee!

school starts tmr. damn. haiz. im gonna meet bf.

babysitter.

2008-06-21T21:37:00.000+08:00

alright. yesterday was a busy day. so,
no time to update. i went out with ibu, again.
she's on mc fer 2days. thursday & friday.
went to causeway point. ate at mcd earlier
and ate at bk ltr. how cool is that?
head to woodlands civic centre to survey,
sofa? haha! The Green, one stop furnishing store
or whatever? i fell in love with the childrens'
bed, i mean, the bedsheet first. it's, ppg?
god! i want it! anyone, care to get it fer me?
please.

hmm. today was awesome! im a so call babysitter?
not that i sit on babies okay? haha! i look after
baby. wee! & guess who? my gf's one and only
princess, maisara. dear mui mui, your aunty
becok/kecoh gonna start school in two days time.
i cant visit you often. but damn, i knw u're coming
back on wednesday day and im so not gonna go
for ASPIRE. im gonna visit u, again! haha!
went out with milah to boon lay shopping centre.
survey pram for her princess & walk arnd. went to
pasar malam too. i was shock that ramly burger
dah naik harge? its $2.80 now. biaselaa, dah lamer
tk gi pasar malam. haha! slack at milah's
place till 8+ and went straight home.
sorry hunney, i was too tired to meet u.
whatever it is, u know i love u. muah!

school? no!! haiz!

okay, thursday. boo.

2008-06-19T18:40:00.001+08:00

haha! this wk, since it is the last wk
of school holidays, i spent my time eating!
woohoo! monday i ate ljs. tuesday i hv a drink
at mc cafe. wednesday i ate at Spaghetti Aglio Olio
at The Coffee Connoisseur. today, i ate Swensen.
nice one.

so, 3 more days to school re-open. damn.
here comes alot, lot of problems. haiz. people in
school are so, gross. okay. whatever.

now, i call myself 'PIMPLE INFESTED FACE.'
like serious laa. my face is like, duh. i got nothing to
do yesterday so i asked hunney to do something.
this is what i text him. here it goes.
"in not less than 100 words, describe ur gf
and how much u love her."

so, he replied. (i type accordingly.)
"My girlfren is swit, she's sexy, hot, i
luv it when she hugs me, coz i feel so loved n warm..
u're such a baby coz u cn tolerate all e trouble n shit
tat i gave u.. n although i hav ditch u b4(which
was 4 years back) u still trust me more en b4..
i luv3 u so much..i want u 2 b my last
n hw i wish u cud b mine..thru life.."

okay, is he swit? haha! & today, it's my turn.
haha!

hello wednesday.

2008-06-18T14:29:00.000+08:00

like other ordinary day. normal.
i rot at home everyday. haha!
met hunney yesterday. he was so, cute!
he's always cute, yeah, to me.
hunney went back to camp sunday night
& came back home on monday morning.
so, we met yesterday afternoon laa.
& he's going back to camp tuesday morning.
he's crazy but hell yeah! i love him.

on the 21st is our 7th month. baby, i love u.
hunney msg me late night or should say early
morning? he msg-ed me at 4.15am.
lucky laa sayang u nie penakot, tdo terbgn-bgn.
so, realise msg u laa. hunney will come back
this friday. oh! i like. i'll be at home the whole
day today and only will be leaving this house
at 5.30pm to teman ibu at her office today.

holiday assignment is obviously, not done yet
seh. god, help me. haha! okay damn, im bored.
i'd rather sleep, the weather is great! it's gonna
rain, heavily. baek uh!

im tagged!

2008-06-17T13:00:00.001+08:00

Tagged to do this:

01. What do you want most now?
-Pass my O's and make my family proud.

02. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
-GREECE & PARIS

03. What's your favorite thing to do?
-Shopping & Eating

04. Do you think money can buy happiness?
-Big NO2 okay.

05. What do you think about yourself?
-I'm open-minded & i'm awesomely cool.

06. Do you believe you can survive without money?
-i know i cant survive w/o food. but i'll need money
to buy food. so, yes!

07. Do you think there is such a thing called "love"? Reason?
(short one would do.)
-yes! when u have an affection on someone, its love. right?

08. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
-buy a house, enough for each of my siblings to hv
their own room.

09. What do you dream of doing in the future?
-being a model(i love only the photoshoots), singer?

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
-my primary sch friend. yeah, he's outgoing & fun to talk to.

11. What makes you happy?
-spending my time on computer, movie marathon & my hp.

12. What type of person do you hate the most?
-hypocrites, backstabbers.

13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
-being someone's wife, with a lovely daughter & loving husband.

14. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
-hmm. being able to go anywhere with just a blink of my eye?

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
-my sister, aisyah. my girlfriends & boyfriend.

16. What I wish for?
-i want more tops, jeans & skirts and shoes!

17. ARE YOU OUTGOING??
-hell yeah!

18. The love of your life now?
-u guess.

19. Are you courageous enough to go and tell the person that you like he/she?
-yes because i did once before.

20. Who's on your mind right now?
-NUR MAISARAH!

Instructions:
Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 10 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

-Aisha
-Kak Shae
-Mashy
-Diniyy
-Atiqah
-Azreen
-Farah

random.

2008-06-17T12:40:00.002+08:00

wee! im back at my place & ready to update!
haha! father's day celebration at ecp was great!
guess who i saw there?
i saw diniy's twin brother. what a coincidence eh?
i met irfan there too. haha! & there's a little girl
who keep on saying,
"woah! rambot putih uh."
u know why? it's because of the colour of irfan's
hair which attract her attention & makes it
easier fer me to track him. haha!
this overnight was different than any other.
haha! ibu mandi laut uh. everyone didnt believe
at first but when they saw ibu in the beach/sea,
they was like, shock. ibu said it was fun. told her it's
fun but she didnt believe. haha!

sunday was normal. got back from ecp, clean up
and sleep the whole day. i was too tired.
but monday was FABULOUS!
yeah, really. kn aisha kn?

i went out with aisha, milah & baby!
wee! haha! & i love mui mui so much.
she's so cute. went to causeway point
as the three of us dont wanna go any
further. haha! lazy laa. & yeah, i was called
"Aunty Kecoh". haha! what a name. when
will i meet her again? psst., only the baby,
mummy tknk. haha! joking! i like her round
big eyes! wee!

im gonna post another post 'cause shafiq
asked me to do something. crazy friend!
hey fyq, who is sarina? nk crite siket?
u know ur friend very kpo kn? haha!

second post for the day.

2008-06-13T15:53:00.001+08:00

okay. this is my 2nd post for today. this really
tell u that im bored, very2 bored. haha!
i just got back from Jurong Point.
i went to jp with my 2nd sis, shidah.
pitied her. she's on leave today to send
her bf off for National Service. aww.
she's sad. i accompanied her.

we ate alot. haha! ate at ljs & delifrance.
there's an old man who stalks us. god!
sumpah dillah takot! haiz. both of us
paid for the stuffs we're buying and quickly
ran out of the shop. haha! lucky, he's out
of our sight.

both of us laugh like crazy as if the place is ours.
we talk abt the silly2 things we did before.
& talk about 7 yrs bck when we just move in
at jurong west when im in pri 4 and had to go to
sshool by train as we're schooling at bukit batok.
the time how papa taught us to go to school by train.
we hold each others hands while crossing. so cute!

that was years2 back seh. now? we didnt even go
out together often. we're all busy now. haha!
dulu kan maseh kental. haha! i tried to be by her side
today and keep her entertained. haha! somoetimes,
its great to go out with my siblings cause we'll talk
things out and u know how it feels right. haha!

okay, im done. i hope im not gonna update for
the third time later? haha! wee!

fun, fun, fun!

2008-06-13T10:12:00.001+08:00

shaha! im so2 happy. i dont have the time to
update yesterday as i was totally busy.
im occupied with alot of stuffs(not, actually).
there's alot of things that happened last two days
and i dont know where to begin. i think i know now.

wednesday, told ya i had dental check-up.
it's not long like the previous one. the previous
one took me 1hr30mins and i left my bf
waiting. this time is only for 20mins? or less.
haha! went to simei from outram with bf,
he need to collect his NIKE SB shoe and his shirt
which he said he'll be the first in s'pore to wear it.
haha! ate BK, of course with bf. head straight to boon
lay to visit bf's grandma and his younger sister,
nurul. everybody there was very welcoming.
thank u. throughout the journey, we didnt get to
sit. damn! otw bck to boon lay(from simei), we alight
at commonwealth as we cant take it standing.
we ride a bus then. hell yeah, at last, we get to sit!
stayed at bf grandma's place till 7.30pm and i head
home.

okay, yesterday was 50/50. not so great. i was worried,
i feel troubled. im restricted to be friends with u.
but at least i tried to be good. i still treat u nicely.
but with u threatening me, u make me worried and even
sick. i've not recover yet. i cn be ur friend but please,
for god sake, stop threatening. haiz. went out with ibu
and farid yesterday to PC SHOW 2008 @ suntec.
god! there's thousands of people. seriously, i look like
a mother. haha! i didnt dress-up, didnt make-up.
i wasnt in the mood to go anywhere but since i've already
promise ibu, i cant cancel the plan. walk around and ibu
say nothing caught her eyes. when to suntec city mall.
ibu bought her son Gelare's ice cream which cost her $4.80
for one typical scoop. even before farid get to lick it,
the whole scoop of ice cream drop on the floor,
leaving just the cone. i saw the look on his face,
he's so sad. pity him but ibu didnt get him a new one
but scold him instead. went to carefourre(sorry if i spelled
wrongly) to shop for some finger food, of course frozen,
for the picnic tmr at ecp. while walking, farid and me
grab some chocolates which i left it in ibu's plastic
and i didnt eat it. urgh! ate at mcd and ben&jerry's.
hmm. nice! it was already 10.30pm. the queue of the
taxi stand is fringgin' long, but, i queued, patiently.
lucky us, there's a taxi wanting to go to boon lay,
so, we grab it first before anyone did. everyone in
front was shock. haha! chances dont come easily, so,
grab it fast! haha! ibu send me home and ayah
fetch ibu at my place. reach around 11+.
msg bf and he replied very2 late. that's normal.
hmm. understand, understood.

woah! i just realise, what a long post? haha!
its okay, i wont be updating fer the nxt 3 days
as im going to ecp tmr and will be there till
sunday. will be having my sleepover at ibu's place.
i'll be back only on monday afternoon, maybe. haha!

kakak, i love u.

2008-06-11T22:39:00.001+08:00

i decided to post at this hour because i cant help it.
i love my sister, alot. i always do whatever she wants
me to. i tried to be whatever she wants me to be.
but, she dont trust me.

i love u so much more than everything.
i bet u know it. i treat u differently
from shidah. u always get stuffs from me.
whenever i go out, i always get u stuffs,
even if its just a chocolate or whatever.
i've nvr said no if u asked me to buy u
something at the shop eventhough im tired.
& whenever u did this,
it hurts me terribly. u make me break down
into tears. why? kakak, tell me when did i ever
disappoint u? i'll accompany u if u need me to.
i'll keep u busy if u hv nothing to do. i'll be by ur
side whenever u need someone. i'll go the extra miles,
all just for you. but, this is what i get?
why? dont i deserve the love from u, from my parents?
i nvr have the answer to these questions.

why am i always look as the bad one? why?!
i know u wont read this because i think u dont
even know that this blog exist. but its okay.
if u happen to read, NURAISYAH BTE HARRON,
I LOVE U, SO MUCH.

lazyness strikes.

2008-06-11T10:47:00.000+08:00

argh! what a word to start with? haha!
hell, im very2, super-duper lazy today.
it's raining(it's nice to sleep) and im having
headache and running nose(im having fever).
overall, what i need is to sleep as im sick and
the weather is thankfully cold, for me to hv a nice
rest.

i seriously don't know how the hell i fall sick.
yesterday, after having my not-so-late-dinner
at kfc with ibu, farid, my beloved sis, her bf and
of course, the BIRTHDAY BOY, ibu and me start
sneezing and we was like, "are we gonna have fever
soon?".

watch KUNG-FU PANDA yesterday.
watch with the 4 names mention above,
excluding ibu. we met ibu, after the show and,
she gave us the treat. the show was awesome!
i burst out into laughter several times. haha!
its a must2 watch movie. but it makes the movie
sucks because a couple(parent), who brought
their baby along and the baby was like crying all
the way? & when babies cry, u know it's irritating
right? the baby must be few months old, not an infant
yet. i should suggest to them, nxt time, leave your
child with your mum. haha!

lastly, im having dental check-up today.
haha! damn the previous one was painful.
bet not for today. & oh, chatted with irfan on
the phone yesterday night.
psst. i'll update about my dental check-up
later or tmr. haha!

hmm.

2008-06-10T11:11:00.002+08:00

haha! & so, im bored again.
oh! i get myself a new phone.
not the N76.
but w660i instead.
it's aisha mok's phone.
but different colour. white/gold.
im not so excited about my phone.
cause, i don't like the colour.
white/gold? senang kotor.
since ibu is the one paying
for it, i just say 'okay cn'.

ibu wants it to be the same colour
as her phone. white/gold too.
but her phone is w910i.
haha! she used to use red but
she change to white/gold last
sunday. she's crazy! same model,
different colour? damn!

whatever it is, overall, im happy.
at least i got a new phone right?
my w850i is doom!
kakak slide it down yesterday.

chatted with razmy at msn yesterday.
haha! was so shock when he said,
"im into local hiphop scene."
haha! i just can't believe my eyes
when i read that. didn't know
that he was at PS last saturday too.
woah! he's not into band anymore,
shocking uh. he even know that hafidz
is from RSC? in my heart, i was saying,
"die nie btol ke tk seh? ke, die stalk hafidz
ngan aku eh?".
haha! cut it out. hmm. razmy,
u still owe me, jgn lupe ehk.
beli kasot bole, byr tknk.
cekik aru tau ehk.

today is my youngest bro birthday,
so, here it goes.
HAPPY 10th BIRTHDAY
HAMID!

random.

2008-06-10T03:46:00.000+08:00

okayy great. i don't know what to update about.
but, im much happier now than before.
tomorrow is my youngest bro birthday and i think
im not gonna get anything for him.
like hello, he got a new hp from papa already?
enough laa. haha! N6120 classic. that's
good enough for a primary 4 kid right?

i hate holidays. seriously. i used to love it
before, but not for now. i got nothing to
do at home. everyday, i do the same usual
routine.

wake up at 9+am, wash up, eat breakfast,
sit in front of this friggin' laptop for hours,
had lunch, do some house chores and do
nothing more. notice that i won't take my shower
early? haha! i'll have my shower the latest is at night
if im going nowhere. if u need to buy some stuffs
at the shop or whatever, then i'll shower early.
haha! anak dara ape nie eh?

holiday assignment? obviously, not done yet.
haha! i'll do it last minute laa okay(maybe).
i bettter get going and clean my house.
maybe i cn get bck to surfing the net
later on. haha!

a whole new world

2008-06-09T08:20:00.000+08:00

im back to blogging. i've just got my laptop fixed.
thanks to, me. yeah, me? im the one who spends
my days and nights on it(macam paham).
others just don't bother.
its been awhile since i last blog, i notice that.
haha! i've got good news.

im back to my place and i think,
im loving it. im much2 more comfortable
here than at ibu's crib. i get the love from
my family again and i don't need to miss them
anymore. but now, i miss ibu's two kids.
haha! i wonder how nenek gonna be w/o
me around shouting and screaming at them.

anw, my w850i still doing fine.
haha! except that it can't be slide down
or the screen will go blank. haha! im
so2 gonna get a new phone. actually,
today. but ibu cancel the plan. she said
she got caught up with some house chores
and i hang up. angry! how rude i am?
im so sorry ibu if u're reading. i know,
i should be patient.

im bored at home. doing nothing.
i ate alot of chocolates today!
haha! i went down several times.
i guess the aunty already recognise
me. haha!

To all.

2008-04-28T23:43:00.000+08:00

DEAR ALL,

I'LL UPDATE MY BLOG A.S.A.P
.
I'M CURRENTLY BUSY WITH SCHOOLWORK

AND STUFFS. FYI, I'M DOING GOOD.

I MISS BLOGGING ESPECIALLY.

THANK U.